Posted by: Rachel | April 18, 2015

Barrage of Emails from ME!

Barrage of Emails from ME!

I’m SO sorry for the barrage of emails to all of you who are subscribed to my blog!! It isn’t spam .. just more of Rachel that you want in a sitting. As I reposted my previous blogs that I took down going back to 2008, it automatically sent you an email notice. I didn’t realize it would do this with a re-post. Again, I deeply apologize for overloading your email!! But this is the end. They are all up.



Posted by: Rachel | April 18, 2015

“Knowing” Our Creator

“Knowing” Our Creator



I heard he is a Teacher.

He became my Teacher.

I heard he is a Father.

He became my Father.

I heard he is God.

He tells me I will soon know him as my God. 

Posted by: Rachel | April 14, 2015

Resurrecting Blog Posts


Previous Blog Posts


At the beginning of 2014, I removed all my blog posts, going back to 2008. I desired everything in my life, including my writing, to reflect the transforming soul condition I was undergoing. During the prior two years, I intensely and soulfully transitioned into knowing our Creator’s love in a way that I hadn’t before. This divine love reframed every aspect of my life. In response to this pivotal change in my soul’s understanding and awareness, I desired for all my postings to reflect this budding perspective of divine love, so I took down the ones previous to this profound shift occurring within me and in my life.

This shift changed how I interpreted everything around me and that obviously influenced my writing. Our Creator’s divine love is superior to everything in all its beauty and harmony, and I wanted to solely express its reflection, even though I was a neophyte to its likeness. I desired all my expressions, including my writing, to flow from this expanding and developing perspective, because I only wanted to give to others from this place.

Over the past year as the awareness and understanding of this divine love continued to grow, I’ve come to the realization that it is important to honor my entire journey because I wouldn’t be where I am without every single step I’ve taken. In 2001, I started diligently seeking truth in the most honest and sincere way I knew how and it led me to this incredible love. As truth builds so does the love it expresses. The steps prior lead to the steps afterward, and I’ve learned to honor them all. So, I’m putting those posts back up.

Every time I sat down to write, I trusted my divine Father’s hand to guide my hand from where I was at spiritually, and I still do. I couldn’t write without this consuming trust. Each time, I experienced his faithfulness, guidance and counsel. I learned and grew. For me, it was really his and my posts, not just mine. He was teaching and I was listening. He began teaching me where I was at spiritually, and what I could receive given my spiritual understanding and maturity. With each lesson, I gently progressed toward the light of his divine love. And to honor how he faithfully led me, I’m putting those posts back up.

Though we are all connected and are moving toward a similar space in divine love, we each learn in different ways. We each learn different details from our varying perspectives. We each have our own journey, and on this blog I’ve shared significant aspects of the mine as I’ve walked it with my divine Father, who I’ve gotten to know along the way. When we possess a sincere desire to explore and know the realm of truth and love, we are never walking alone.

As I’ve learned to honor my unique and individual pathways into his love, I’ve learned to honor everyone’s. It is my current understanding that the journey for each one of us is to move ever deeper in the awareness and power of his eternal divine love, for then we know the true God. And we not only know him, but we are also able to unite to him in love through his love. We each are unique in how our pathways play out because they are an integral part of shaping our individuality and purpose. Our Creator, who is faithful, will lead each one of his children, whom he loves, into his truth and love, thus into him, our beginning and end. This is the circle of life.

This journey through this dark and blinding wilderness serves many and varied purposes. I’ve learned to honor every step for all it has taught me, for where it has brought me, and continues to bring me. I’m grateful for it all.

Removing the posts for a time was a necessary part of my journey, and now putting them back up is just as necessary. The further we progress along our spiritual path into truth and love, the more we see our lives have been perfectly imperfect that we might dwell in our Creator’s perfection.


Posted by: Rachel | March 25, 2015

Prismatic Souls

Prismatic Souls

Of Light Catchers 

(Part 4: Exploring the Mysteries of our Reality)


Pure desires possess a magnetic quality that attracts divine love.

In this dynamic fusion, the divine love of our Creator is drawn toward and into our soul and becomes a part of our soul. It’s another step in the journey of becoming a divine human soul.

The Prismatic Soul

Our kaleidoscope soul possesses a prism like quality. Initially our prismatic soul is muddled by erroneous desires. A false self-judging consciousness creates desires contrary to divine love and this manifests a soul that is unable to receive and give the divine light, or divine love of God.

The purifying of our desires, which brings them into alignment with the nature of divine love, creates a crystal clear prism, which possesses a refractive quality. Through this refinement of love-fire, our soul is prepared to receive and reflect the incoming light.

Love is a choice. It’s experienced when it is given and received, both voluntary actions. Thus, for us to experience an inflow of divine love, our souls have to fully desire to receive and give this sacred love. When we hunger and thirst for this love, we go through an intense preparation period that refines and aligns all our desires and longings in accordance to this love. After the dust has settled, we realize we’ve come to soul state of sincerely and utterly desiring with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength the divine love of God.

The Divine Light

God, as the Creator, is always beyond creation. As we express ourselves through the things we create, he expresses himself through his creations. How we experience God, who is always beyond creation, is how he chooses to manifest himself through creation. And for God, who is love, he creates a synergistic expression with and through our soul, an entity created to exude love. In this fusion, he expresses his infinite and limitless love through the innumerable and vast individualized expressions of divine human souls; Jesus Christ is an expression of this divine human soul.

In his essence, God is like a pure white light. His light consists of the harmonious unison of the characteristics of divine love. This pure white light holds limitless potentialities of expressions of divine love, unborn expressions of truth. Through the construction of our prismatic soul, which is able to receive and give his light and manifest these potentials, he is able to express himself in creation, as well as be an intimate and governing part of creation. It’s absolutely beautiful, complete, and perfect. This union is our salvation. Our divine human soul gives his light a venue for expression. And, when we are a part of him (receiving and giving his divine love) is when we truly know him. All the false images fade away and we experience the reality of his love, we love him in return, and we become a conduit of his love to others.

The Manifestation of a Divine Human Soul

Once we’ve come to a consuming desire, our souls are prepared for a synergetic union with his divine consciousness, light, through the law of attraction. Our aligned desires generate a magnetic pull upon the divine love energy of God. A place has been prepared in our soul for his love to find a home within us, because there is no more conflict stemming from contrary desires. Our soul attracts his love, for a dwelling has been made in us in which his divine love can be received, experienced and given, and thus he can be the governing entity of our soul. A match is made in heaven.

As we are pulled by this magnetism through the vortex from this reality of a “dead” soul and into his reality of a “divine” soul, we undergo an incredible transformation, likened to the experience of childbirth. After this incredibly intense transition of our soul that feels like a death and re-birth, His divine love flows into our soul as a pure light. As it unites to our soul, the potentials of divine love manifest through the creative elements of our soul and produce a beautiful array of expressions. A prismatic kaleidoscope divine soul casting a cornucopia of brilliant colors comes forth, a coat of many colors, and God is manifested through his creation. This is why Jesus said, “when you see me, you have seen the Father.” He is a pure prismatic soul reflecting the divine love of God; of which one day we will be too.

In this dynamic, we experience his love as if it was our own. Unlike natural “love” that we currently experience that is generated from our self, divine love flows through us from its Source, God. This channeling effect is how we are able to have divine consciousness, which enables us to give divine love. Divine consciousness (righteousness; which is thinking, speaking and acting in the perfect way for the situation at hand) comes from beyond us and through us, and thus not bound to our limitations. Through this dynamic fusion with our Creator, he is expressed through us and our utmost individuality is expressed.

This rainbow soul exuding divine love from the divine consciousness is the fulfillment of the promise reflected in the story of Noah. This reality isn’t going to end with a flood of bitter waters, but it is to be transformed by a flood of light through our prismatic souls. In this the power of our Creator’s love is experienced and known. And in this metamorphosis all creation is regenerated through immortal harmony created by divine love. And this creates life, everlasting.


Posted by: Rachel | March 11, 2015

Light Catchers

Light Catchers

Of Purified Desires

(Part 3: Exploring the Mysteries of our Reality)


Desires are the progenitors of creation.

The defining attribute of a soul of divinity, one reflecting the likeness of our Creator, is receiving, experiencing and giving divine love. Thus, an essential aspect of a metamorphosis into this divine soul, who exudes this eternal light, is desiring this love.

As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, we can’t love perfectly, or divinely, with our current false self-judging consciousness. However, we can desire this love in our current state. I believe the formulation of this desire is a part of the purpose of our current state; a desire that couldn’t manifest as it needs to without the experience of imperfection.

Pure desires are ones that reflect the characteristics of divine love. They produce a soul condition within us that is a necessary creative element that precedes becoming one with the divine consciousness of our Creator, which gives us the ability to love perfectly. So, though desire may seem like an insignificant aspiration, it’s of infinite value and power. Thus, desire formation and refinement is a pivotal part of our soul’s development.

The Path of a Light Catcher

Personally, possessing an increasing desire to love divinely is coming through many lessons of experiencing my own brokenness, pain and the pain I caused others, while being instructed in the nature of divine love through my conversational prayer life. The conglomeration of these experiences and teachings ignited a desire to sincerely love that grew into a desire to love … perfectly, and this desire continues to expand. It wasn’t one moment, but many moments strung together, because as truth builds, so does the love it reflects.

When our soul sparks with the desire for divine love, then as I’ve stated before, a guiding question to our situations and interactions is what would divine love do or how would I want to be loved? As we continually probe for the answer to these questions, we are schooled by our individualized reflective reality. This creates a fire of refinement that purifies our desires. And it’s our desire for this love that keeps this fire burning until all our desires are aligned to the nature of divine love and we gain a prismatic soul that can catch the light of God.

In response to this inquiry, a still small voice from within that we’ve heard throughout our lives (which we’ve labeled many terms depending on our belief system) begins to impress upon us the nature of divine love. It isn’t that we know exactly how to act, but the motive in which we act becomes refined and purified. Through this instruction, we learn about the characteristics of divine love. And these lessons touch every aspect of our lives because love and truth affects everything.

At times my false self-judging mind creates a deafening static that inhibits my ability to hear this whispering voice, but as its rants are quieted, the voice-like impressions come through. This inquiry into divine love serves as a plummet line into truth that grows ever more refined as we learn the nature of this sacred love.

Characteristics of Divine Love; the Everlasting Light

When the various attributes and their variations of divine love flow in unison, they manifest the singular harmonious vibration of divine love. If one is absent or not present in its fullness then it isn’t divine love.

These characteristics contain many layers, infinite expressions, and truths. Some of its characteristics are it’s always 1. longsuffering 2. kind and gentle 3. humble and confident 4. courageous and with no fear 5. honoring of all 6. constant, consuming, and all-encompassing 7. healing and forgiving 8. giving and nurturing 9. merciful 10. trustworthy, honest, and faithful 11. abundant 12. of divine judgment. It loves perfectly at all times to all entities of creation. It excludes no one or nothing. This love moves through us from its Source. It isn’t self-generated. It is the light of God.

When we are guided by the desire to love, we discover our desires are tainted with a multitude of features contrary to this love. Our desires, intentions, and motivations are teeming with grudges, retribution, resentment, ill-judgment, bitterness, selfish-ambitions, worthlessness, apathy, un-forgiveness, and lack of mercy toward others and ourselves. In certain situations or with certain people, we don’t want to be gentle and kind. We don’t want to honor all, but revel in self-exaltation. We don’t want to be longsuffering, but we want what we want now. We are controlled by fear and control with fear. Our love is fleeting, inconsistent, and temperamental. We inflate our pride to mask our insecurities. We take instead of give. We manipulate and are unfaithful. We hurt others for our benefit. This is where this path gets very difficult. Every jot and tittle of our soul is highlighted in this purification process as we face the likeness of a “dead” soul, one that lacks divine love, head on. And as the light of refinement grows brighter, nothing remains hidden.

As ugly as these traits can become, they are but the cries of our own pains and wounds. So when someone is acting this way to you, know it is his or her pain talking, thus to love them is the answer in a way that honors you, them and others. Everything we experience in this “fabricated-self” serves to teach us. It’s all purposeful.

This love-fire continues to burn until we are left with a consuming desire to always love with all our being; heart, soul, mind and strength all of creation, the instruction of our Teacher. Our lives start to reflect a shadow of this desire, though the ability to divinely love hasn’t manifested. This lack of manifestation can be frustrating, discouraging, and painful especially as our desire to love continues to intensify. The more we learn of this love, the more we desire it. This desire creates an intense hunger and thirst in our soul for the divine consciousness (righteousness) that makes divine love possible.

Though a trying journey, the sighs of divine love keep pushing and carrying me along and encouraging my soul. In this, I find reprieve because its very nature assures me that I will one day bear its likeness, for those who hunger and thirst for righteousness will be filled. What a beautiful promise.

With a desire to divinely love, our soul embarks upon this refining path that runs immensely deep and incalculably vast. Every iota of our soul becomes aligned in its desires to the nature of divine love. This creates a soul condition that enables us to connect to the divine consciousness and to give of its love. In this oneness, we become expressions of truth, for love is the expression of truth. Truth of who we are, who God is, who others are, how creation functions, what our purpose is, and how we operate. Thus, the most cogent path to truth is through the understanding and growing awareness of divine love, the plummet line into truth. And as we experience an inner change of our desires for all that is pure, beautiful and of divine love, our own soul testifies to us that we are encountering the realm of truth.

In this purity, our soul gains a prismatic quality that can catch the everlasting light, our Creator’s divine consciousness, and we our on our way to becoming Light Catchers.

Posted by: Rachel | March 4, 2015

Perfectly Purposefully Placed

Perfectly Purposefully Placed

To Serve Love’s Purposes


Over these past weeks as I’ve been reflecting on the life of my brother John, his defining gift of unconditional love to me is shining ever brighter in its purpose and meaning. But what I’m also seeing in a new depth is the many degrees and variations of love I’ve learned from others that possess a spectacular beauty of their own.

John’s love flowed as a continuous stream toward me through my most trying times caused by my own harsh judgments of myself. No matter my current condition or phase of life, his love was constant, pure and untainted by my mishaps, and generously poured out without hesitation. This love is a wondrous gift to receive in this reality where we face copious amounts of rejection, disapproval, and ill judgment from others and especially ourselves.

As I more clearly see John’s gift of love, I’m seeing the different gifts of love with everyone in my life. Every person in my life is perfectly purposefully placed to reveal and teach me about divine love in some way, as I am in theirs. The variety of interactions, relationship dynamics, and particular situations all reveal aspects of love. It’s not that we give divine love because that requires a divine consciousness, but the dynamics of the relationships and interactions can teach us about divine love. And the learning sparks the consuming desire for this love, which is part the process to obtaining it. As a result, I’m experiencing a deep gratitude for each person, whatever the nature of our relationship. This understanding has caused the lens in which I view my reality to take on a new dimension. We are all gifts to each other if we have the eyes to see, and often those gifts come in unexpected ways.

This truth extends even and especially to those souls who at one time I would have seen in a hurtful light. In responding to the divine instruction, which is to love, they provide opportunities for me to learn some of the greatest aspects of divine love; mercy, humility, courage, compassion, longsuffering, honor, and forgiveness. And when I respond with the desire to love them, it produces revealing effects about the power of a sincere love, within myself and within them. And these situations also give me the opportunity to pass along what John gave me.

Thus, I’ve found that my learning of divine love is exponentially accelerated when I heed the divine instruction to love as you want to be loved. And not treat others as they treat me, or give them what I think or judge they deserve, or not consider them at all, but to live with the driving intention; to love as I want to be loved. In doing so, I’m learning aspects of divine love I wouldn’t have otherwise.

With this perspective, every person is valuable and purposeful in my life to reveal some dynamic of love to me, as I am to them, for we couldn’t learn the aspects of divine love without each other. And if you, like me, know you’ve given others opportunities to learn forgiveness, mercy, and unconditional love, then we know that even those moments will be used for good in their lives, as well as ours as we learn from our blunders.

It’s from these mishaps, that we witness a particular beauty in the workings of our eternal Father’s love. As a Creator of perfect love, from our lack He creates abundance. For example, when we are forgiven much, we love much. The depth to which we realize our own need to be forgiven and shown mercy enables us to love with a depth we couldn’t otherwise. This is how any “lack” we may have experienced is turned into abundance. Those who have seemingly done a lot to be forgiven of, in their perfect timing, will experience thus possess a kind of love that causes the love they give to be of a distinctive depth and tenderness. It’s like being healed from a great illness and experiencing how grateful you are for your health that you wouldn’t have experienced if you weren’t ill in the first place. As we grow in the awareness that everything, whether we judge good or bad, is used for the good of all, we gain an immense reconciliatory peace with our rocky sojourn through this reality.

Because we are constantly interfacing with each other, our reality presents a continual stream of opportunities to learn of divine love. Therefore, the answer to every question and decision in this creation somehow comes back to love. This understanding is beyond helpful as we try to navigate this reality with all its twists and turns. Love heals, helps and what is needed every time. A decision coming from any other motive creates disharmony is some way, whether we see it or not. So learning about divine love is an essential aspect of our pilgrimage through this reality. For though love may seem straight forward, there is much to learn about it, as I’m discovering. And as we learn of divine love, our choices and decisions become more discernable because the plummet line to guide us, love, becomes refined. We still may not respond exactly right, but with the right intention, we find that beauty is created through grace.

I want to reiterate one very important point that I referred to earlier. Currently constricted to a false self-judging consciousness, we can only learn about and desire this perfect love, but we lack the ability to fully express it. I state this over and over because if we expect to perfectly express the love we feel, our frustrations will overwhelm us. The perfected physical expression is only possible with divine judgment or perfect understanding, which comes from an all-knowing divine consciousness that we one day will all be a part of.

In the meantime, our temporary self-judging consciousness, which we currently possess, that is full of error and prohibits our expressions of love is playing a significant role. It allows us to learn of mercy, compassion, longsuffering and forgiveness, which are all beautiful aspects of divine love that require imperfection to experience. In perfection, of which one day we will be, we can’t learn these things, yet they are essential to divine love thus to knowing God. So, we couldn’t know God without experiencing the imperfections of this realm, because we couldn’t know the nature of his love. Thus, in this simulation that is serving as an educational course in love, we can learn of the perfection of love by experiencing imperfection. Ironic, isn’t it?

In this school for the soul, we call life, we experience progress in our soul development as we learn of divine love. And one day, when the essence of divine love fills this realm by filling our souls, we’ll witness its power to regenerate every soul, thus all of creation into everlasting life, which will teach us a whole host of new beauties of the power of divine love. In the meantime, each person in our reality is perfectly purposefully placed to serve love’s purposes, and we are perfectly placed in theirs. May we all have the eyes to see this inherent beauty and purpose in this temporal yet significant reality.

Posted by: Rachel | February 26, 2015

A Living Legacy of Loving Kindness

A Living Legacy of Loving Kindness




This legacy is what my beloved younger brother left behind when he exited this physical realm 15 days ago on February 11, 2015.

Since his unexpected passing, though waves of great sadness roll over me, my heart continues to feel his love pouring into it. How can that be?

As the shock waves dissipate, I’m being blessed in seeing some beautiful reflections; aspects of the purpose and meaning of his life, the interwoven design of all things, the hearts of those whose care, prayers, and support provide ethereal arms to carry those who knew and love John through this time of transition, and the love and care that flows through our family.

John Michael is a very special soul. He is numbered among the precious souls who never lose the unconditional touch of love from childhood. They continue to give this special love all their lives as it expands into a love that exudes honor, loyalty, integrity, trustworthiness, mercy, good-will, honesty, kindness, gentleness, and courage. We feel loved, valued and special in their presence no matter who we are, for this love holds no prejudice. They are son-kissed souls who help us along our soul journey through the trials of this temporary sojourn. They serve a special role that is an exceedingly great gift to those who are blessed to dwell in their reflection. We often call them “our angels”. These souls, who give us a love that always lifts us up, are like refreshing springs along our earthbound pilgrimage. And for their love, they are greatly loved.

Several of my close friends have also been blessed with such a brother, and like me their brothers were un-expectantly taken in the youthfulness of life. Yet, the gifts of loving-kindness they gave during their shortened days continue to pour forth; for love never dies.

Throughout these 15 days, I have continually heard from within, “love never dies”. Love, with all of its characteristics, is the one aspect of this reality that never dies. It transcends space and time because it is the character of eternity and immortality. When a connection is made between two souls in a pure love, this connection remains intact even when one exits the physical realm. It is a connection that crosses all barriers. I learned this concept in theory, but now I’m experiencing it in my reality. My beloved brother is the first person who I’ve been close to that I’ve been separated from in what we call “death”. Yet, it’s only a physical separation, because the connection formed in our souls remains, and this teaches me that even “death” can’t destroy love. Thus love is what overcomes death.

Throughout the past couple of weeks, I’ve seen markings of a pattern and design pointing to a higher purpose for his early exit. Their interwoven nature reveal a much greater plan and purpose that we are all a part of. Being able to see this is an exceedingly great comfort to me. It’s incredible and I’m extremely grateful for the eyes to see. So though I feel sadness because of my deep love for John, its buffed by a continual expansion of a greater awareness that there is more to the story, for love never dies.

John = “Jehovah is a gracious giver”

Michael = “who is like God”

In so many ways John Michael fulfilled the meaning of his name. And in doing so he left a living legacy that continues to give.

John’s funeral “happened” to be upon Valentines Day, and how fitting because his life portrayed a brotherly love to those he knew. One may think I’m biased in my words, as I am an adoring sister, until you hear the stories and witness the impact his life had on others. His character shined brightly to those who knew him.

John subtlety deposited seeds of a pure love in the hearts of others. The stories and impact of his life upon others reveals this over and over. The seeds were experienced in the non-judgment, honor, and value they received from him. These were gifts to strengthen us along our soul journey through this trying place, a place that challenges and refines our own love. For me, it seems like the seed he gave me is blooming in a way it hasn’t before. It is opening up passage ways in which my love can flow that were once blocked. I’m seeing love’s reflections in new ways. Though my awareness also grows in seeing my lack of expressions of love, his love inspires me. He casts a beautiful reflection upon my soul that encourages me to never give up on love, for it is the essence of true life. This is his living legacy. It continues to give; for love never dies.

The other day as I reflected upon his life, I wish I had loved him better. But I was reminded by that still small voice from within that this life isn’t about living perfectly, for its impossible, but to learn about the perfection of love. But still I wish I expressed my love to him more.


(I love this picture, to me it reveals the connectedness in our souls.)

John is a skilled horseman, marksman, and craftsman. He was a carpenter by trade. He lived this life in the purest of “religion”; to love others as you want to be loved. Though I don’t think he necessarily tried to live this, he just did, as one of a true love would. From the time he was a young child he possessed sensitivity to the souls of others that enabled him to “see” them and connect to them. He disdained conflict and sought peace and unity. He possessed a calm and peaceful demeanor until someone mistreated one he cared for. Even then he showed restraint when needed. He never forced his opinion or ways upon another. He protected and watched over those he loved. My life is peppered with stories about his protection overshadowing me. And he wove his special love into our family that connected and blessed us all.

John only wanted to see smiles and no tears. As my own tears flowed from my deep love for him these past weeks, I told him that I know he doesn’t like to see my cry, but I just love him so much. He understands. But he also taught me the balance of holding a cherished remembrance of one who is passed, and continuing to move forward because there are others who need your affections. He always possessed wisdom beyond his years, and I often told him he was more soulfully mature than the rest of us. He is a special soul; he is a son-kissed soul.

From the moment he was born, he was connected to me in a pure and sacred place in my heart. And from his childhood, I called him my angel, and I’ll continue to; for now he possess a freedom of spirit in which he can do and give far more than what he did when bound to a physical body. His soul journey continues on and how blessed are those souls he encounters. In his physical form he gave me a strength and comfort amongst the trials of life, and I know he will continue to do so for love never dies. But I so deeply miss those big ole hugs.

I love you so very much John.



Posted by: Rachel | February 5, 2015

Reflective Realities

Reflective Realities

(Part 2: Exploring the Mysteries of our Reality)


Reality is a mirror of the soul. 

Our shared reality is the human soul’s mirror.

Our personal reality is our soul’s mirror.

Both are our teachers.


A dynamic interplay resides between our soul and our experiential reality.

Our soul is like a kaleidoscope. The soul gives form to our consciousness so that we can possess individuality, like the individual designs seen through a kaleidoscope. The energy manifested from our unique designs creates our spirit, which is our “substance” in creation. Every belief, thought, perception, desire, emotion, act, and time-based judgment contains an energetic property to it. The sum of these is our overall energetic character or spirit. We contemplate the soul, but we experience the spirit.

Our personal reality is a mirror of our kaleidoscopic soul. Just as we look into a mirror and see the many aspects of our physical reflection, when we look at our reality, we can see the many aspects of our soul’s reflection. The latter is more difficult to observe for the “untrained eye”. But with observation and meditation upon this dynamic, we start to see the many connections between our soul and our reality. If we change our physical appearance, the mirror will reveal it. If we change our soul’s appearance, our reality will reveal it. Though changes in our soul may not produce what we expect because one change affects the whole, like a change in a kaleidoscope affects the entire pattern in ways not anticipated.

This interplay is echoed in the concepts of karma and you reap what you sow. It’s the understanding that powers the “self-help” movement; change yourself to change your reality. For those willing to learn, our realities are great teachers. But as we learn and grow, we encounter an insurmountable limitation; our false self-judging consciousness that governs our soul. In these posts, I’ll be sharing my exploratory experience of what a soul goes through to overcome this limitation, thus become a soul of divinity.

Reality – The Soul’s Reflection

Right now our life or reflective reality mirrors the sum effect of every judgment we’ve made, yes or no. Where we live, our lifestyle, our religion, our habits and our health. If we have a job, spouse, and/or children, and the nature of these relationships. What we eat, drink, and wear. Every aspect of our lives down to our thoughts is affected by our judgments, choices and decisions. And every aspect has an energetic vibration that sends ripples into our reality, which also influences our shared reality. Mingled into these effects are elements like divine mercy, intercessory prayer, the plethora of energetic vibrations of creation, and the current state of the human consciousness as a whole. The interworking of our judgments and these other influences creates our reflective reality.

With every perception, we are constantly judging, choosing and responding to what we perceive, which is constantly altering our kaleidoscope and its expression. We impact reality and what our reality reflects back impacts our next spin.

It’s enlightening to contemplate how our personal reality is the cloak of our individual judgments. When confronted honestly, it leaves no room for blame. But it also reveals the creative aspect of our soul. We are creators. And our main creation is ourselves.

The Fabricated Self

We all are “self-made”, with mercy in the mix, to a significant degree. Upon birth, we receive the raw materials for our soul’s journey; gender, race, aspects of our parent’s spirits, our birth year, etc. and then our self-contained judgments build upon them. Each one of us is living out a specific series of potentials based on these judgments that are networked into our purposes and individuality, like the interwoven design of a kaleidoscopic image.

Our reflective reality reveals this “self-made” aspect of our mortal experience. And as we consider its reflection we observe there are many inherent problems with being “self-made”, which is a key reason we are experiencing it. At profound levels I’m learning that being “self-made” isn’t what I desire at all, but to be entirely divinely made, thus to be divinely governed. In a “self-made” mode, we forfeit all of the characteristics that make us truly alive; divine love, truth, individuality, true freedom, rest, endless joy, to name a few. If only Eve knew this in the garden, yet how could she without this experience?

Through our self-driven judgments, we create a “fabricated” version of ourselves. Our fabricated-self is the reflection of our soul that we experience while we are governed by the false self-judging consciousness. With this consciousness at the helm, our soul is governed by erroneous relative truths. These distorted constructs mesh together and create our individual expression. It’s a fabricated-self created by our false self-judging consciousness that manifests a false reflection of who we are. It’s not who we truly are because it is based on lies about who we are. It’s quite the conundrum.

These distortions in our perceptions create a contorted reality that perpetuates our erroneous judgments. Our “self-made” creation of our self-driven will creates a world of problems. This fabricated-self muddies every reflection in our reality; how we perceive ourselves, others, our relationships, our work, our purpose, our situations, our reality, and our Creator.

This fabricated-self is why there are SO Many different images of God. Our soul jades every perception, including our perception of God. All these perceptions remain muddled until we begin a soul journey of knowing the Truth, thus divine love.

As truth begins to enlighten our soul like splashes of light on our muddled kaleidoscope, our perceptions slowly start to align to truth. Instead of being solely influenced by the revolving dynamic of the false self-judging consciousness and our reflective reality, we are introducing a new element, divine consciousness. As we extend our soul through conversational prayer into the realm of divine consciousness, our consciousness is influenced by this divine consciousness and truth starts to seep in. The truth begins to replace the lies thus the illusions created by our fabricated-self.

This is the beginning of our journey of transforming from a fabricated-self into a divine-self. This temporary mortal realm, in which we experience the “self-made” reflection, serves an essential role in our evolution into souls of divinity. We will always create a reflective reality because our soul is a creative entity. But instead of a false self-judging consciousness at the helm, we will be governed by the divine consciousness. Through this governance, perfect judgment flows through us as if our own. Our reflective reality becomes one of light, life and love and no longer of darkness, death and the absence of a true love. Thus, our cloak reflects many brilliant colors coming from our kaleidoscopic soul of divinity. So though our soul begins as a black and white kaleidoscopic design, it becomes a soul reflecting a cornucopia of rainbows.

More next time …

Posted by: Rachel | January 28, 2015

Muddy Puddles

Muddy Puddles

The False Self-Judging Consciousness

(Exploring the Mysteries of our Reality)


The foundations of our experiential reality are shaped by the conditions of the human soul. Thus, understanding the human soul reveals the mysteries that lie within these foundations; mysteries such as why we are here, why our reality is as it is, and what our purpose is as a whole and as an individual. And how we come to know this “unknown” God of divine love, who is a God of the living and not the dead.

Contemplations of these mysteries have filled the minds of philosophers, mystics, spiritualists, religions, and scientists. In our present soul condition, we each possess our own perception of reality because of how we currently interact with relative truth. But if we step back we can see threads of truth running through the truly contemplative minds, which I find intriguing.

How we perceive truth will always be relative to us to some extent because it flows through our individuality. However, our relative truth can either be moving into alignment with the Truth or keeping us bound to illusions. Anything observed by us comes through our current perspectives. So the moment we “observe” we are interpreting. For example, to look at our reality from an energetic level versus what we see with the naked eye creates two very different observations, thus interpretations. These observations produce different assumptions, thus affecting our responses to what we observe.

So truth is truth, but our interpretations vary and our interpretations can make what we perceive a lie or a hazy version of the truth. It’s my belief that we come to the hazy version of truth by learning from the Spirit of Truth and Love of our divine Creator, for this Spirit is the only one with the full perspective. And as we continue to learn, the haze slowly diminishes. An exceedingly precious gift to each of us is that we each have access to this Spirit, through our innermost soul, the door through which we encounter eternity, thus the truly real.

So understanding that there is always more to learn that deepens and clarifies our “understanding”, I want to share some of what I’m starting to perceive of these mysteries. The significance of exploring these foundations is that a deepening understanding helps to clarify our purpose, our soul’s journey and thus how to navigate this experiential reality. It helps to clear up the muddy puddles created by our present “governing” consciousness.

Upon our soul’s incarnation into this mortal realm through our physical birth, our soul was encapsulated in what I call a false self-judging consciousness. It’s what governs our individual realities.

First, our consciousness is dynamic. It’s our total awareness at any one moment that is always in a state of change, to some degree, for everything affects or influences our consciousness. Our current awareness creates our current perceptions and our perceptions create how we “observe” life and thus act within it and respond to it. Thus, it is what governs us. It’s the ever-changing summation of every belief, thought, perception, desire, emotion, and time-bound judgment that all work together to create our individual expression.

Second, it’s self-judging. We each separately think on and judge our reality according to the makeup of our particular consciousness. It’s like we each are a computer with our own operating system running its own programs according to its own definitions of what is good or not. Out of this individualized consciousness we make our own self-contained judgments every moment of our lives. What to do or not to do, what is good or not good, what is right or what is wrong. Its operating system is the self-driven “free” will that chooses between the options presented, yes or no, like a computer’s 1s and 0s.

Thirdly, it’s false. These judgments that we make come from our limited and finite mind that only knows what it has experienced. It is a mind full of error and perhaps some hazy truth, but a little mud muddles the whole puddle. Because it is coming from our limited little self, its judgments are always in error to some degree. We may think we are smart and make good decisions but as we grow in the understanding of a divine consciousness to contrast our own by, we realize our perceptions function in an isolation that creates disharmony in ways we never considered or suspected. This understanding manifests a profound humility no matter how much you know. It’s a consciousness that is complicated, cavernous, complex, contradictory, and confounded.

Though we act from the limited isolated views of a finite mind, our actions effect all of creation. So every judgment we make sends out ripple effects into creation. Our essence is energy, which knows no boundaries. As energy, we are continuously sending out ripple effects and as we are governed by this self-judging consciousness, though some of the ripples may appear good, they are also full of error. It’s impossible for us to judge correctly because we lack the perspective we need. We are not an all-knowing creation, but quite the opposite. This limitation is a characteristic of a self-driven “free” will or “individualized” will, in which we choose this way or that, yes or no.

This false self-judging consciousness rules and governs each one of us. Even though we may feel we are making a “free” choice, we only have the capacity to choose according to what our cumulative consciousness up to this point will choose, so what we call free is actually bondage to the current state of our particular false self-judging consciousness. Thus, “free” will is an illusion. We are bound by and to our false self-judging consciousness, and this is what governs us. It is the “god” of this transitory reality, for it governs this reality because it governs the human soul.

BUT, this transitory consciousness serves a very important purpose. It is creating within our soul a foundation upon which we can exist in eternity in divine love with a true and eternal freedom. It is a critical component of our soul’s journey to becoming a soul of divinity. It serves to instill into our soul truths and desires we couldn’t possess otherwise. So there are significant purposes to abiding, for a season, in this false self-judging consciousness.

So, though our current soul state is governed by this temporary “simulated” consciousness it is housed in the all-encompassing consciousness of a divine Creator. So, as we pull back or go deeper for a bigger perspective, we see there is much more than what meets the naked eye, and the mysteries start to unravel.

 This is the beginning … more next time.


Posted by: Rachel | January 21, 2015

Dream Weaver

Dream Weaver


As the Spirit of truth and love shapes our souls, he weaves his will and desires into the fabric of our being. These become our dreams, consuming passions, callings, and life purposes. Thus, he accomplishes his purposes through us.

Woven into the fabric of my soul is the dream for all of creation to abide in immortal harmony, which is created by the governance of divine love.

The human soul suffers for a lack of divine love, thus all of creation suffers. This divine love is always present as a guide and counselor to our weary souls. But to BE this love, its likeness, it expression, and its very substance isn’t easily manifested, for it comes in unison with divine will (perfect judgment), which requires a relinquishing and nullifying of our self-driven “free”-will.

I long for all of us to be of divine love’s likeness; souls of divinity and not souls of depravity. And for me this hope lives for this realm, not for or only for the hereafter. I understand some of the essential reasons for our soul’s journey through this land of illusions in the shadows of death, but that doesn’t diminish my hope and pursuit of what this love promises for and to the human soul.

Divine love draws me continually closer to it, and gives me hope that its workings will accomplish what it set out to do. It will not fail. So, I keep preserving and persisting into the hope that has been knit into my soul’s perceptions; perceptions that have become more real to me than the reality I face each day.

To BE this love of divinity is the true freedom of the human soul, thus for all of creation.

Above is a glimpse into what the hand of divinity has woven into my soul. Therefore, my perceptions and understandings are shaped by and around it. I share it with you, because it establishes a framework and foundation for my posts.

In this mortal realm, the human soul reigns with an absence of divine love as a part of its character. Daily my longing grows for divine love to reign in and through the human soul, which means that we have an oneness with our Creator, who is love.

Over the years, I’ve come to give everything for this calling upon soul, and gladly. Though giving everything for what has not yet materialized is a difficult place to reside at times, and many times lately. Yet, at the precipice of reality, in the space between the unseen and seen, is the place where dreams are made. We must press into this unseen point of inception for our hopes to become a reality. And for me this edge is found in the private chambers of the innermost soul where the only One who can manifest this dream is found and encountered.

Though the promises of divine love continually encourage my soul, I feel trapped in this in-between place; a place between a world of illusions and a world of beautiful concepts that words aren’t fit to express. So currently, I feel like a prisoner of hope. Because of my hope, my life is a seesaw. On one day, my soul soars at the magnificence of these beauties I perceive with my soul. These concepts of love are so sublime that they alter my desires, my longings, how I spend my time and how I live my life. Yet, on another day, my soul wallows from my outward experiences that only reveal the same old illusions and shadows. On these days I feel lovesick.

The essence of my dream is simple; love. Love is simple in what it is; but not simple in how we come to understand it, or to be it.

The more I learn the more everything comes back to this defining attribute. The attribute that defines every other characteristic of eternity, for God is love. To understand that God is love to any depth we have to understand a bit of the nature of God as well as his divine, perfect, pure love. In both of these areas we only gain hazy understandings through revelation in conjunction with personal experience, but this is our starting point. To know God we have to become a part of him, therefore a part of his defining attribute; divine love. This is why to know him is eternal life, for when we know him it is because we are a part of him, which is immortality. Thus, one reason the statement, God is love, has minimal impact in the world is because its not intimately known by the soul.

Interestingly, though we may not understand his love as it is further masked by our false self-judgments, it’s interesting to me how we yearn to be embraced by a perfect love; unconditional, unwavering, consistent and constant. This longing is the “calling” that we have within us … our Father is calling us back into himself to be an extension of his spirit and no longer wanderers in the deserts of the self “free”-will.

When we are this divine love, then we perceive God as he is, though our perception is always expanding. Thus, the journey of our soul is to become this love. Not just live by its counsel and guidance, which we can do now, but to be it through and through. So we start here at the beginning, before life, in the land of the shadows of death learning by contrast, what love is and what it is not, pushing into the love that is our souls’ resting place.

I set out fourteen years ago to know God, and my soul seeking has led me to a God of divine, perfect, holy, and pure love. And my deepest yearning is for all of us to intimately know to him, thus become children of his likeness and for him to no longer be the “unknown God”, but the One intimately known and loved by all of Creation.

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