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Reflections on my Brother’s Transition

Reflections on my Brother’s Transition





On my parents’ pond, this very rare and extraordinary sighting of a white pelican occurred two days after John’s funeral. A creation whose symbolism reflects John’s character and likeness.

It’s been almost eight months since my younger brother transitioned to the place beyond the flesh. I don’t like to use the word death, because he isn’t dead to me, but his soul and the spirit it exudes lives on. The word “passing” is a close second to death, so the word “transition” best fits what I feel to be true of his state. Though, I can’t see him with my physical eyes, my soul feels the closeness of his spirit. It’s like he is in another dimension that sits right up next to this one; a dimension that our physical can’t touch, but our soul can engage.

So, I talk to him. I don’t shut down our connection as dead, but keep our connection alive in love and acceptance of how we are today. I tell him I love him. It seems I can’t tell him this enough even though I know he knows it. I tell him how I feel that I let him down in so many ways, yet the moment those thoughts arise I’m reminded of how I have an eternity to make it up to him. Though I feel this way, I sense his spirit has only love for me, and appreciates what I did give; knowing it was the best I could do at any given time; that is John. He is able to see into others.

Though I sense he feels the depth of my love, I still wish I loved him better while he was here. And through that desire, I’ve learned many lessons. Though I can see how I could have been a better sister, a better friend, I don’t possess any guilt. It’s not about guilt, but about learning from everything and growing. So, I desire, with great mercy and grace, to live in my increased awareness of all he has taught me and continues to teach me.

Though guilt may be an initial reaction to seeing the error of our ways, I’ve learned if I stay in guilt, it keeps me from growing while releasing guilt opens me to learning. Guilt confines me to a reality of a negative effect or outcome, versus growing from my experience and what it intended to give me, and living in that enhanced reality. Because of this, my reflections of John are teaching me a lot. I seek to live in the expanded awareness as I try to carry these lessons forward. I feel this honors him and his transition process.

Love never dies. I heard this over and over the week of his transition. To me, it means the connection between us can never end, wherever we are, because it is sown in an intention of pure love. Perhaps my actions weren’t reflective of the love I feel, but I realize that is part of the plight in this brief reality. A pure and true love is the energetic life force of eternity. It can’t die. If it dies, it was something else.

So our connection is alive and active. I sense his spirit. Through this interaction, I “see” him more clearly now. I see him in ways I didn’t when he was here. I wish I had this vision while he was here, but thankful to possess it now.

For me, continuing to interact with my brother is a blessing to him and me. It isn’t holding on to the past, but engaging him as he is now, and I’ve learned that being current is an essential part of this connection; otherwise I’m connecting to a lifeless image. It’s different in that it’s purely soul to soul, but the connection between us lives. I feel it’s important for him and me that I honor his journey as he moves on to the next stage. Yet, that doesn’t mean letting go of our relationship or connection. But it does mean that I emotionally let him move on to his next stage of his soulful journey by not wanting back the past. Growth, though erratic in going forwards and backwards, comes from a willingness to always go forwards.

For John, I sense that for him to feel our active connection is nurturing to him, because I honor his new place. Yes, I miss his presence. But, I want him to prosper and grow in his new environment; whatever that means. So my heart stays connected to him and supports him fully where he is. I think to strongly want back those who have gone through this transition has a negative pull on them. It certainly seems to have one on us. Perhaps if it is negative, then they don’t feel it. But either way, I feel it’s important to set them free in this way, yet continue to lovingly give our support, for their soul lives on.

When we have a pure love for someone we emotionally allow them to move forward. If we don’t, there is an unhealthy attachment in the relationship, which is something for us to work through.

Because of this understanding of our living connection, I’m exploring a new territory. I’m not only talking to him, but also learning to listen. If our souls are connected because love never dies, then perhaps it’s possible that I can not only sense him, but take it a step further and hear him.

With the Spirit of Truth, my soul is like a receiver that picks up a thought impression of his and I record it. I hear the essence of what he is sharing and write it in my words, if that makes sense. Therefore, I use my words to express his thoughts. From this soul connection I’ve experienced with the Spirit of Truth and the many confirmations of this interaction, I’m wondering if this dynamic can occur with John as well; for love never dies, thus the soul connection of that love.

Allowing myself to sense John’s presence has brought me to deeper levels of compassion, understanding, and an expanding awareness of the shades of love. So, will I be able to go to this next level? I feel compelled at times to do so, so I follow that prompting. I’m exploring this new connection with the caveat of always desiring to stay in the truth, yet always willing to learn.

Regardless, I hold him close. John transitioned, but his soul is very much alive to me. In a pure and true love, our connection remains intact whatever dimension we are in. I let him be free to be where he is. I honor his new form by relating to him as he is. I continue to love him, and with all I’ve learned, more so. I talk to him, I seek to attune to his spirit, and I honor his new life. Love never dies. I take the lessons I am learning from experiencing his life and transition and seek to live in them, which honors him, his life, and ultimately all.



Spiritual Laws

Spiritual Laws


Spiritual laws, physical laws, and the interplay of the two operate this simulation. In both, everything comes down to mathematical precision. Everything comes down to cause and effect.

In a self-determined consciousness, we decide yes or no (1 or 0), which determines the next cause and effect. We don’t control the laws, the outcomes or anything else. We simply choose or decide yes or no in thousands of ways. This yes or no is where our “free” will resides. (Represented by the Tree of the knowledge of Good and Evil; where we judge good and evil; yes and no) Yet, even this “choice” is bound and not “free”; for it’s influenced by the condition of our consciousness at the time of our choice.

This yes and no dynamic is the working of the self-determined consciousness, versus, a divine consciousness, which is just yes, because our choice is governed by perfection, not us. What directs our soul comes from beyond us, versus, from us. Thus, we still have “choice” in a divine consciousness, but what governs that choice changes from mere human to divine.

Because the spiritual laws govern the outcomes to our choices; if we are aware of them they can illuminate the cause and effect dynamics occurring in our lives. Understanding these laws help us to “see” our consciousness, and in contrast the divine consciousness. Through them we see how the consciousness operates, functions and expands.

These laws exist in this simulation and in eternity. The difference is in this simulated reality we can’t fulfill them, and in the eternal we can. They are fulfilled when we act in perfect divine love (not the self-generated love of the self-determined consciousness). This is why Jesus said the sum of the commandments is love (divine love). He fulfills them because he is governed by the divine consciousness, thus in perfect love. When we possess the divine consciousness as he did, thus when we are one with him, then we’ll fulfill them too.

Pursuing the commandment to love reveals our great obstacle; we can’t divinely love. We can in intention or desire, but to love in action with a perfect love is always an act done in faith, because we’ve not yet received the substance of divinity. If we had, we would be immortal. Yet this desire to want to divinely love, and doing so in faith develops a soul condition that can unite in a oneness with the divine consciousness of our Creator.

So, we can desire divine love, but our self-determined consciousness in unable to create it. It’s produced only in the working of the divine consciousness. Again, a self-determined consciousness can’t create a true love – the highest good for all – it’s not in its capabilities because it isn’t an all-knowing perfect consciousness. Yet at the same time, we desire this divine love with all our being. This desire is the desire of God, for God. It’s placed and grown in our soul by him, for him, to pull us back into him. Along the way, our soul is prepared for oneness with him. The desire for this pure love is essential. It’s our homing beacon back to him.

Any spiritual law not fulfilled creates disharmony and the absence of divine love, thus ripple effects that bring “death”. This is another reason we learn this reality is only a simulation. If it was real, God would be here, and he can only exist as he is, as God. Where he is, there is life, harmony and love because his spirit is sovereign, and nothing can overturn it – it’s impossible. This is what it means to be God. It’s impossible for this “reality” to truly exist in the realm of an all consuming, omnipresent, omniscient, and loving Creator.

As we learn about these laws, they humble us in our self-determination to realize that only a oneness with our Creator can fulfill them. We learn through them to relinquish our self-determined consciousness, and desire to be an extension of the divine consciousness. Not to push into our self-determination thinking we can self-perfect, which can be a natural reaction when we first learn of these laws. Again, a self- determined consciousness by its very nature can’t truly fulfill them; only a divine consciousness. These laws in themselves reveal that we can’t fulfill them in this consciousness, thus we can’t create harmony or divine love. However, they also reveal the divine consciousness can accomplish these outcomes. If we try to live in them perfectly, they will frustrate us to no end, thus we live in them by faith. We experience our failure that we may choose to let go of our consciousness and be absorbed and fully governed by the divine consciousness; to give up our “free” will. They reveal why we need to be a part of the divine consciousness that is all knowing, perfect in choice, function, and in expression of divine love.

Thus, we have faith, and are called to live by faith. And above all to live in this divine love in faith, because engaging this living faith is what prepares us for the substance. Faith exists because there is a state of “separation”. The fulfillment of a faith, based on divine truth and love, is oneness with the divine consciousness of our Creator, which is an end to all separation.

Jesus Christ revealed that this potential of oneness exists for us; here. And when the Spirit that is in him enters this reality to abide in us eternally, we too will fulfill this potential. Its fulfillment ends the self-determined consciousness so that there is only the divine consciousness all in all. Thus separation, the absence of love, and every element related to “death” and “darkness” ends.

Again, until then we try to remain patient in our faith as our Creator completes in us what he set out to do – to create us in his likeness.



The Simulation We Call “Life”

The Simulation We Call “Life”


Our world perspective is taking a dramatic shift. Our “reality” isn’t want it seems. It isn’t real, but a simulation. Here is one of the best videos I’ve seen on the science behind this concept.

Several years ago, the Spirit of Truth began to teach me this concept. I hadn’t heard it elsewhere, but it deeply resonated within me. Like a piece of the puzzle, it connected many previously disconnected pieces. I’ve mentioned this simulated or dream state in various posts, and to see what is happening in science at the moment is well, incredible. It’s like we are realizing this whole time we’ve been asleep and living in a dream.

As dramatic the shift was from believing the world was flat to round, this finding is much more so. As the former altered our possibilities as humans, this one alters them far greater, in my opinion. When our understanding of our reality changes, so does our response to it. Who knows where this will lead us in relation to the insight it provides.

Possibilities, Probabilities, and Potentials

In the framework of a simulated reality, our future moments are only probability waves. Our current state of consciousness determines what we will actually observe or experience in our next present moments. Nothing is fixed, but as energy everything is being constantly altered by our consciousness. This isn’t new. People have been manipulating and working with this idea for centuries. But as a whole, the depth of what this means has been residing below our awareness on many levels because of our overall beliefs about the makeup of our reality. In this understanding, the present is all that exists in this simulation. It’s another way of saying that the past is only memories and the future is only imagination.

Our Creator designed this simulated state of a self-determined consciousness for us, ironically, to teach us, to reveal himself, and to make us in his likeness. I say ironically because this consciousness is contrary to his own, but it serves to teach, reveal and create through contrasts and opposites. It’s a consciousness missing the element of divine judgment.

In this simulation, our consciousness is expanded and governed by our self-determination. Thus, on various levels we are the creators of our reality, but we don’t create the rules it is governed by. A self-determined consciousness means we decide what is good and what isn’t, versus being governed by divine judgment. (This soul state is represented by the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil.) But, we can’t control the outcomes of those choices. In this, our point of reference for our choices is our own finite and extremely limited understanding, versus our true Source and Center our Creator. (Unless we attune to the Spirit of Truth and seek his counsel, but even that is based on our level of discernment and whether we choose or are able to follow his counsel or not.) Because of these conditions, our erroneous choices and judgments have developed a consciousness that is our prison and controls us. It creates what we don’t want it to, and doesn’t create what we want it to. It creates an endless battle within ourselves. It’s like a wild beast.

However daunting this may seem, underneath everything is the loving hands of our Creator. This simulation was designed and created by him. This means that ultimately everything is serving his purposes, which is for us to be of his likeness; endless expressions of his divine love. Thus, his love is never far from us, but surrounds us like a womb. And he established a connection for us to him via his Spirit of Truth and faith. This connection is found within our soul, which resides on the edge of this simulated reality and the real. So though we may wrestle and struggle, it’s a temporary nit in the expanse of eternity; a nit that enables us to be his expression for eternity.

The beginning of the end of this simulated (dream) state is to relinquish our self-determined consciousness as we witness first hand all its shortcomings. It can’t create true harmony (good for all) because it can’t truly love, which is to create the highest good for all. Thus all it can create is “death”. Thus we all die in this simulation. (However, Jesus Christ revealed that this death could be defeated.) We can’t even know what the highest good is in one situation for one person. It’s always a guess. Much less know the highest good for everyone in all situations. Only the consciousness of our Creator that is all-knowing, sovereign, all-powerful, and perfect in love can create the highest good. However, again ironically, he takes all that we created counter to the highest good and uses it for the highest good. This is how he “reconciles” us back to himself.

When we become an extension of his divine consciousness, then we can live out our individuality in immortal harmony and perfect love, and “death” and all its many shapes and forms is eradicated. In this oneness, our simulated dream state transitions through regeneration into our real and eternal state.

Until then, we try to remain patient in our ever expanding faith as our Creator completes in us what he set out to do – to create us in his likeness.

More next time on the spiritual laws of this simulation ….



Tough Days

Tough Days


As my spiritual journey takes me into the higher echelons of the awareness of unconditional love, it also takes me deeper into the depths of my own darkness. I sense I rise into the former by descending into the latter, for one reveals the other.

The increases in the awareness of unconditional love possess a flip side. They expose the infirmities and afflictions of my soul until I’m left feeling completely undone. Where all I can do is breathe. In riding the relentless whirlwind into my own depravity, I wonder is this normal? How after all these years of walking with the Spirit of Truth, and with the awareness he has given me is it possible to descend into such depths of despair, despondency, and discouragement? The answers come as the clouds clear and I realize these tough days are a part of the journey.

To traverse an honest, real and soul altering journey, it’s necessary to travel into these shadow places of my soul that I’ve spent much of my life running from, hiding from and hiding from others for the shame I feel in them. In those places reside the seat of my weaknesses, insecurities, imperfections, and all that makes me feel unlovable.

I gave up directing my soul journey a long time ago and put it into the hands of the Spirit of Truth. He reveals to me splendor upon splendor that is beyond amazing to behold, and yet he also takes me into such depths of darkness. These descents often come upon me as an unexpected torrent as I come head to head with various levels and forms of my illusions, lies, fears, insecurities, sadness, depravity, and cruelty. Though traversing these depths create very tough days, facing the depths keeps my journey honest and from the entrapment of superficial spirituality. Ironically these trying days take me into a deeper awareness of unconditional love. They reveal to me what it means to give and receive this love in the realm of faith, and in the realm of substance.

The deeper my faith, the deeper I go into these places, which at first you would expect the opposite. I wrestle my ill beliefs, lower mind, illusions, and lies, all that challenges my expanding faith. Most of my “stuff” is buried deep. Thus the deeper I go, the more difficult the encounter until all has faced the light carried in my faith of an unfailing love. It’s part of the immortal light penetrating my entire soul, thus the entire human soul. For once I see my own state as a self-determined soul, I see every other soul with a deeper and greater compassion and love.

Someone once stated that unless you are willing to go all the way in a soulful life journey, it is better not to begin at all because those who walk honestly face all their Goliaths in the midst of all their weaknesses. The journey requires a steadfast faith that in the end the soul’s hunger for divine truth and unconditional love will be fulfilled. True spiritual practices are raw and real and are beyond mindless ritual, conformity to pre-determined thought or anything pre-determined for that matter. Though they can sooth they soul, they also tear open the soul with the purpose to let in the eternal light and create something new. It’s a journey where the Spirit of Truth is your guide, and you go wherever he takes you, high or low.

I find my spiritual guide along this journey, the Spirit of Truth, only takes me into these depths when I have the corresponding faith to face them head on and move through them. For you only face what you can handle, though it doesn’t feel like it in the moment. You feel you are at your breaking point because you are breaking. Sometimes surviving these moments is just that, you simply survive to the next moment. If our journey is an honest one; sincerely seeking after divine truth and unconditional love, then we will receive the faith we need to carry us through every whirlwind, every dark abyss, and every soul torrent.

Why journey at all if it is so difficult? Why not live in the bliss of ignorance keeping everything buried? For me, through this process, my desires are re-shaped by the hand of the Creator; desires that enable me to connect to him in an immortal oneness. I sense this journey, every high and low, is part of becoming a soul who can be one with his spirit, thus, a soul who can express the boundless and infinite potentials of divinity. A deep work is being accomplished in my soul from something beyond me yet connected to me. The Spirit reaffirms over and over that this path of dying and rebirth is the way to immortality and the greatest path I could ever traverse in this brief existence. Despite all the wrestling in my soul, the Spirit of Truth continues to say; this is the way, just keep walking in it.

The mercy of the Designer of the journey is that often the morning light brings relief. Sometimes I know if I can just make it through the day, tomorrow will be better. I stay in the inner struggle long enough to gain whatever is necessary and what that experience intended to reveal, give or remove. I stay long enough to gain the awareness that once again the only answer to every question, problem, or heartache is unconditional divine love. And only a oneness with the divine spirit of the true God fulfills that answer. And he is the only one to manifest that oneness. And thus my desire for both grows stronger and more consuming.

So if we struggle with ourselves, good. We are getting somewhere. But we must remember that the Spirit of Truth is in our corner. We are not facing anything alone though that is how we feel in those boxing matches. As we pass through the core of our deepest darkness, in the end we encounter the heart of God. He is found beyond our soul and thus, at least for me, going through all the grit and grim of my soul is part of the journey of getting to Him, the essence of truth and love; my true Source and Center. And along the way, I learn his love is the answer to everything, and that is worth everything.


The Compass of Unconditional Love

The Compass of Unconditional Love


In the land of the unreal, the real is a dream.

In the land of the real, the unreal is a dream. 

Wake me from my dream that I may live my dream

To be Unconditional Love.



The Choice

The Choice exists for our soul, because love is a choice. The Choice is between life or death; to live upon the rock or the shifting sands, to possess the divine consciousness or the self-directed consciousness, and to give and receive unconditional divine love or conditioned human love. These are all the same choice.

Divine love consists of many beautiful characteristics that give it its expression. Some I listed in my post Light Catchers: It’s always 1. longsuffering 2. kind and gentle 3. humble and confident 4. courageous and without fear 5. honoring of all 6. constant, consuming, and all-encompassing 7. healing and forgiving 8. giving and nurturing 9. merciful 10. trustworthy, honest, and faithful 11. abundant 12. of divine judgment. It loves perfectly at all times to all entities of creation. It excludes no one or nothing. This love moves through us from its Source. It isn’t self-generated. It is the Light; the power of our Source and Center, our Creator.

Therefore, to grow in the awareness of the characteristics of divine love is to begin to know our Creator. Otherwise, we hold a false image and reside in a darkened mind. Thus, to choose this love is to choose to connect to Him; for he is found in this love. Thus, this love with each of its attributes is our compass down the path of enlightenment and into oneness with the Light.

Unconditional Love

Lately, one particular characteristic of this love has been highlighted in my journey; its unconditional nature. It’s given and received without condition; a trait unknown in the shifting sands of conditioned human love. It’s unwavering, constant, consistent, and unfailing. It’s always present in harmony, purity, and perfection. It’s a rock. Thus, its unconditional nature serves as an important part of our life compass.

Though, unconditional love is given and received without condition, because it’s love the recipient must receive it and the giver must choose to give it. In this choice to give and receive is where all the conditions reside in conditional love. We judge ourselves worthy or not to receive it, and we judge others worthy or not to give it to; both for a myriad of reasons. When we possess faith in unconditional love we skip this judgment and reside as an open fount while maintaining honor, integrity, and purity of intent.

This pivot point of choice is where our voyaging becomes much more difficult. Once we choose unconditional love, a multitude of conditions from our soul surface to teach us what this choice means. Along this leg of our journey, our choice is refined into one of integrity and sincerity.

Choosing unconditional love elucidates the areas of our soul’s difficulties extending back to our childhood. Our pains, betrayals, hurts, wounds, fear, and all their protective gear; our judgments, self-righteousness, pride, ego, isolation, anger, selfishness, are unearthed and exposed. Our protective gear forms a multi-layered barrier around our soul center; the outlet of love. This heart-wall stands like Jericho and prohibits us from a sincere choice to give unconditional love because we chose our protective gear instead.

Yet, as we continue to grow in awareness, we gain new perspectives that reframe these painful areas. For example, we no longer see past decisions that led to pain or harm to others and ourselves in disdain, but we realize it was part of our shadow self presenting opportunities to grow by. In the lucidity of truth that comes to us in layer upon layer, we find a release for our walled-in difficulties, and assimilate the wisdom they provided to our eternal spirit mind. As these hurts are loosed, the protective gear falls away, and our soul opens to receive and give love in faith. Our self-imposed conditions are consumed by the awareness that this divine love is needed to heal and restore our soul and all those we’ve impacted along the way, thus we come to desire it above all else.

Inner to Outer Love

Through this exposition of our souls, we come to realize we give what we have; whether in faith or substance. A divine love isn’t self-consumed or self-generated. It flows from the Source through us to others. It is received into our soul, and then it is given from our soul. Thus, if we don’t desire or understand the need for an internal love, honor, and respect for our own soul then we can’t progress in giving it to others, for it flows through us and to others. The internal love we possess is the love we express.

Thus, the degree of love we have toward ourselves is the degree of love we have toward others. If we claim to have a love for others and not ourselves, we have not love, but attachment. If we claim to have a love for ourselves and not for others, we have not love, but disillusioned ego.

This inner love is one of the hardest lessons we face. Our shadow self challenges us with personal weaknesses to teach us how to receive a love without condition for ourselves. This is part of its purpose. But we get hung up on the conditions instead of realizing they are present to teach us about unconditional love.

To love without condition is understood when there are conditions to overcome. The more conditions, the more expansive our understanding of this love becomes. Thus, in the midst of imperfections, weaknesses, and afflictions, and all sorts of conditions, we are able to learn of this divine love’s magnificence, depth and vastness. How it covers, heals, and restores. We are given ample opportunities to learn of this divine love, thus the nature of our Creator that we may sincerely choose oneness with him, as a part of his divine consciousness.

Faith Then Substance

Again, the ability to give unconditional divine love in substance is gained through a oneness with the divine consciousness, when we no longer reside in the reflection of our shadow self, but as our true divine self. Because faith precedes substance, the Spirit of Truth crafts a living faith in divine love, which the substance fills our soul at our awakening. Experiencing our shadow self creates the faith that leads to the manifestation of our true divine self.

Importance of Faith

The growing awareness of this love driven by our CHOICE create neuro-pathways of the ways of God within our eternal spirit mind of our true self. This is the formation of our faith. These prepare us for the inflow of the energy of the divine consciousness. If our understandings and desires are in contradiction to this consciousness, there is no synergistic fit, for love is a choice. It’s like two magnets repelling one another instead of pulling toward each other. A sincere longing for this divine love with all its attributes creates an inlet and outlet for the divine consciousness to flow through our soul to others.

As the awareness of unconditional love grows in our own soul, then we are able to extend it to others in faith, which again precedes the substance. If we are unwilling to give this unconditional love, then the door to our soul remains closed. However, even in this state, if we continue to seek truth and divine love; our unwillingness will change to willingness as we learn divine love with all its characteristics is the answer and fulfillment to all we seek. Unconditional divine love is eternal life, immortality, power, harmony, freedom, peace, joy and rest for our souls and streams of living water for others through us.








Unearthing Our Shadow Side

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Unearthing Our Shadow Side


A mind connected to the light; perceives the light. Until we connect, all we see are illusions in the dark.

The view into our soul from the inner chamber isn’t all pleasantries. But as we align to the perspective of truth, all we see, including our shadow side (false fabricated self) is encapsulated in divine love.

From the inner chamber, we begin to see ourselves raw and real. As our awareness increases so does our vision of our current soul state. As an observer of our own soul, we witness the depths of our struggles, afflictions, depravities, brokenness, frailties and illusions of our soul. These can throw us into states of sadness, frustrations, and even hopelessness. However, as we continue to seek to expand in the awareness of truth and divine love, we begin to realize that they are serving a purpose; to prepare us to receive and give divine love.

As we move toward the light, we begin to face these aspects of ourselves that we’ve spent years running and hiding from. All that we’ve held in our soul is exposed. In the darkness of unawareness, these traits remain hidden or sketchily seen, though their pain can be intensely experienced. Thus, we go through life creating disharmonious ripple effects and clueless as to why. Thus, to see is a blessing, though it may not feel like it initially … or even for awhile.

What do we do when these adverse and painful reflections are exposed? The multifaceted qualities of co-dependency, damaging control, fear, criticalness, self-pity, victimization, self-doubt, ego, pride, greed, lust, selfishness, guilt, shame, degraded self-value, and so on?

We can either view our shadow side with despondency and hopelessness or as a means to grow in the awareness of divine love. The latter builds the constructs of truth that prepares us for the inflow of the divine consciousness.

We see these attributes for what they are because we are seeing their contrast; what our soul expression would be in divine love. We see what we see for our instruction; for our soul’s sake, others and as a part of our Creator’s workmanship in us. As we seek what we are to learn from these challenging traits, we grow in the awareness of truth and divine love. In time, we learn that everything in our lives is serving our highest good as we surrender from our rebellion.

Acknowledgment, Letting Go, and Building Truth

When we see the attributes of our shadow side from a perspective of growth, we acknowledge, let go, and enable truth to expand into our awareness.

  1. Acknowledgement. To receive new constructs of divine love, we first acknowledge and confess the ones not of divine love. This requires honesty and transparency with our inner and outer reflections. Blame, complaining, denial, and suppression, all block the learning that is purposed in these imperfections. We each have what we have to learn what we need to about divine love.
  1. Letting Go. Once we acknowledge the attribute, we desire to let it go. To utterly and completely forsake it. Much of our expanding awareness is a process of letting go. This level of letting go is an onion peeling process. We have a trait because it helped us in some way. Our anger, control, pride, withdrawal, or denial served to protect us in our youth when we didn’t know what else to do with what was handed to us. We are challenged as we mature to let go of our childish ways and embrace the ways of divine love. This doesn’t mean instant change by any means. It means a desire to sincerely let go of this trait that blocks divine love; because this desire to let go opens the pathways for truth to start building in its place. So the questions arise: Do we truly desire to let go of this attribute? Or does it feel empowering at times? Does it help us “survive”? Does fear keep us holding onto it? Over time as our awareness expands to the nature of divine love, we gain a sincere desire to want to let go of all that hinders this love.
  1. Building Truth: When we acknowledge and desire to let go, we are enabling the Spirit of Truth to mercifully build truth within our soul; the truth about the nature of divine love. Over time, bit by bit, as we embrace the truth instead of the lie, the footholds of these counter mindsets start to loosen. The more thoughts and beliefs we have supporting the lies, the more blinding the lies. The more thoughts and beliefs we have around the truth, the more lucid the truth. So we seek to cultivate truth and not the lie.

He who covers his sins will not prosper, but whoever confesses and forsakes them will have mercy. Proverbs 28:13


What follows from this process is very individual and purposeful.

After we’ve gone through this process, these challenging attributes often continue to linger.  To alter these deeply seeded habitual perspectives and responses is the work of the Spirit of Truth within us. We are our Creator’s workmanship. Often these traits linger, because they assist in the building of the truth. They keep us seeking, asking, praying, and going deeper, instead of lounging in the complacency of ignorance. Therefore, above all we are called to trust in his workmanship in us and not our own or what we think should be happening.

A particular “weakness” facilitates a deeper trust in our Source and Center. It empowers us to put our pride aside and possess a sincere humility. It teaches us the faithfulness of divine love in the midst of unfaithfulness. Weaknesses serve our growing awareness. There are many purposes to our lingering imperfections.

Over time as we expand our awareness, the weakness may be no longer needed, thus it’s removed. Regardless of the outcome, our purpose is to expand our awareness. Thus whatever we face is there for our instruction. When we focus on this purpose, we are focused on the light and we grow. If we succumb to self-pity or blame, we are focused on the dark and that stifles our heightening awareness. Our imperfections serve to teach us.

We are learning what a soul governed by a self-directed will, versus a divine all-knowing will manifests. When we face our dark shadows, we begin to see the illusions we constructed. With a self-directed consciousness we make constant erroneous judgments. These create a reality of illusions, which we translate into our truth, our reality, our life. Our harsh judgments about our imperfections make it a thousand times harder. When we look from the perspective that all is for our growth and we aren’t meant to be perfect, then our judgments lessen. Our judgments feed our fear and our fear our judgments. As the fear dissipates in the awareness of a divine love, our imperfections, struggles, hardships, and afflictions begin to serve us according to their intended purpose.

The Spirit of Truth is always present to teach us through everything we face. As we open our ears as a willing student to learn from whatever we may encounter in or outside of ourselves, for one is the reflection of the other, we become prepared for a oneness with our Creator, which is our deliverance and eternal rest. Only our Creator knows when our schooling is complete. As long as we are in our school uniforms, the self-directed consciousness, we are to learn, and our imperfections are part of the curriculum.

As we’re drawn toward the light, our illusions fade and we see all is working for our highest good.


Our Sacred Inner Chamber

spiritual-awakening-earthOur Sacred Inner Chamber


In a stillness of mind and quietness of spirit, we enter the inner chamber of our soul.

This inner place is one of our greatest discoveries of our mortal lives because it’s where we encounter the light of our Source and Center that guides us into himself.

The Sacred Inner Chamber

The inner chamber of our soul is the place that sits on the edge of our personal reality and the realm of unlimited divine potentials, the realm of our Creator. It’s the center and beginning of our soul. It’s the place before creation; creation of any thought, emotion, desire, feeling, word, movement or action. Thus, it’s a sacred space of innocence and purity.

If we imagine our soul as a temple, this place is the innermost part, the most holy and sacred portion of our being. Because it’s a place before anything we create, it’s untainted by error. In this purity, we are able to encounter the sacred light of our Creator.

Our temporary self-directed consciousness prohibits an open door connection to this sacred light. Yet, though we can’t connect in substance, we can connect through our spirit. It’s like speaking through a door, versus face to face. The substance of the light is the power of divine love and the governance of the divine consciousness. Thus in this self-directed state, we experience the love through the medium of faith versus substance, and the divine consciousness in concept versus actuality. But this self-directed experience is essential in preparing us for receiving the substance. Life comes through a darkened womb under a veil of flesh before entering the light and coming face to face.

It’s through this inner space the Spirit of Truth speaks to us from the divine realm beyond us. His voice echoes throughout our being calling attention to himself to draw us into his truth that he may lead and guide us. It’s here in our inner chamber where his spirit fashions us to be the temple of his divine consciousness. It’s where we are closest to absolute truth and divine love.

Mindful Meditations

As a spiritual practice, we can engage in mindful meditations that serve to connect us to this inner chamber. In stilling our mind and quieting our spirit, we put aside all the distractions and attune our inner perceptions to this inner sanctuary. With pure intentions of heart and mind, and a willingness to listen and grow in the awareness of truth and love, we find entrance into this sacred place.

In this space we sit as an observer; a place beyond and before our thoughts, emotions, and all we manifest. We offer up what is on our minds, what is consuming our thoughts, what we are obsessing about, or what is happening in our reality. We step back and take the place of an observer and open ourselves up to to learn what we are intended to about divine love from these happenings. From this vantage point, we witness the rest of our soul thus life from a higher perspective that enables us to gain insight into our personal stories. Because of this lucid perspective, wisdom finds an entrance into our awareness so that it can instruct and enlighten our path. We attune our inner ear and sit as a student to the Spirit of Truth, and he instructs us about the experiences of our lives in order to illuminate us in the ways of divine truth and love.

Growing Awareness

When we begin our mindful meditations, it takes practice in quieting our minds from the noisy hubbub of life; the more drama and complexity the more noise. Thus, why those on the path of enlightenment choose a life of simplicity. It helps them to reside in this place of enlightenment. It takes time to discern the noise from the Voice of Truth. It’s like learning a new language, a language of the Spirit. So we are required to be patient and dedicated.

Once we find an inner stillness, we can begin to attune to the truth seeping into our awareness. The truth comes like a little light in our darkness. It reveals the nature of harmony, life, love, and truth for our soul, the collective human soul, and all of creation. As we continue our daily meditations, our discernment between the truth and the noise grows increasingly more distinct. In my personal practice, writing is a great facilitator to my inner ear. Sometimes the reflections come through my mind to the paper. Sometimes it’s as if the words flow right from the Spirit of Truth through my pen and I learn and listen as I write. Sometimes, I just listen and record later.

As we diligently cultivate entering into this inner chamber, our ability to hear the truth enhances. The trickles of truth slowly build a new foundation in our soul that enables us to receive more truth. Truth builds. Thus, we grow in awareness as we receive the truth in faith bit by bit.

The droplets entering into our awareness continue to expand until they become a thriving stream. At this point, we find ourselves stopping in this inner sanctuary throughout the day. This frequent engagement is an indication that our lives are transitioning from pivoting around something outside of us, (job, family, spouse, children, pain, parents, self-worth, etc.) to our true center, the place of engagement with our Source and Center. When this becomes our center, the divine light has found a continuous pathway through the spirit into our present awareness. Our thoughts begin to shift according to our new center and we fully engage the journey of enlightenment. Finally, when we transition from growing in awareness from this light to becoming the light, we’ve obtained oneness.

Awareness is a continual expansion of truth and divine love that builds new constructs of belief and thought. These new beliefs and thoughts provide the framework for the inflow of the divine consciousness. It’s the building of our inner temple to receive the spirit of divinity. The occurrence of this inflow happens at the discretion of our Creator, because his consciousness will transform the entire human soul as one, for we are all connected. Until this day of our awakening, we grow in awareness to obtain a divine desire for this light, to make the choice to receive this divine consciousness in love and totality, and to develop a framework of constructs of truth within our soul that his divine consciousness can manifest through.

Therefore, the purpose of of this part of the journey isn’t to self-perfect, because a self-directed consciousness isn’t constructed to, but to grow in awareness of absolute truth and divine love that allows us to connect to the divine consciousness that perfects us. However, the awareness itself does bring about various changes in us.


In the day of awakening, when we transform into a divine soul, our inner chamber is filled with the substance of the light; the governing divine consciousness of divine love. Instead of growing in awareness of the light, we become the light. Our gained understanding of the nature of divine love and our desire to give it to all without reservation is the carrier of this light through our soul and into our reality, which the light regenerates in immortal harmony. When we are one with this light, every aspect of our soul is consumed by it, and all our energetic vibrations resonate according to divine love. Thus, the light governs every aspect of our experiential reality from our soul out to the ends of creation and we are one with the Source and Center, our Creator.

Photo from Cassandra Sturdy




Liquid Reflections

Seeing Our Liquid Reflections


Liquid Reflections by Emily Mort


This profoundly intriguing and creative photograph, Liquid Reflections, by Emily Mort reflects a more accurate depiction of our reality.

Do you see your soul’s reflection? It’s all around you; in your body, relationships, circumstances, choices, words, and reactions. All of these are shaped by the little ripple effects you create with each energetic pulse of your soul.

In the post, Reflective Reality, I touched upon this dynamic of our experiential reality. For me this is quite a paradigm shift from what I grew up with, but as this perspective settles in, it opens up a world of understanding and insight into my personal life and “my world”, which interplays with the world at large. This reorientation of how we view our reality is one gained along the yellow brick road into InLIGHTInMenT.

This paradigm reveals our self-creating nature that is inherent to us simply being. We are constantly creating from within our soul out. Our constant energetic motion is creating the motion picture of our lives. We don’t effort. We just create. The effort comes in trying to create what we want instead of what we don’t want, which is where our training ground resides.

Energetic Vibrations

Our reality consists of energy. It’s fluid, in constant motion, and reactive to our soul’s output as a pool of water reacts to energetic vibrations. The water studies by Dr. Emoto show this dynamic in the most astonishing ways. These studies began my process of reframing how I saw my reality and the impact I had upon it. Hard surfaces cast illusions of solidity that blind us to our full effect on our perceived reality. We, from the inside out, are constantly altering its reflection. We are continuously modifying our reality with every vibration we send out from our soul with our beliefs, reoccurring thoughts, emotions, words and actions. In this, our reality reflects back to us our truth; what we hold as truth, not the Truth. However, as we begin to embrace this new paradigm of thought, we begin to align more to the Truth, which is the journey to becoming “enlightened”.

Thus, our seemingly static reality of hard surfaces is actually like a pool of water and our soul is the fount. The drops of water of our spirit fall from our soul into the space around us and create ripple effects; in our body, relationships, circumstances, present surroundings and in the collective human soul. What is happening on the outside is determined by what is happening on the inside. At the same time, the drops from others’ souls are creating ripple effects that impact our soul for they conjecture up a response from us. In this interplay, our consciousness in a constant state of change. Therefore, at any one time, our reality is reflecting and impacting our current soul state. But we must be slow to judge and steady to observe and learn; for often our reality isn’t reflecting what we first assume. A listening ear to the counsel of the Spirit of Truth enlightens us to the language of our reality.

Imaginations vs. Truth

When we begin to see our reality in this way, we see that most of our memories consist of our imaginations about our reality, versus the truth. This can be a liberating realization for it can help us to let go of situations we need to let go of that have enslaved us because we held them as a truth instead of an imagination. The brick laying process of the road of enlightenment is the diligent progression of our soul aligning to the Source and Center, thus the Truth, and away from our illusions we call truth.

We grow in wisdom and understanding as we learn from the ripple effects we create. We need not fear them, but learn from them. We learn to listen to what our reality is telling us and teaching us, which starts to become utterly fascinating as we develop this listening ear of mindful awareness. We learn not to be afraid to hear what it has to say knowing this experience isn’t about our perfection but learning in imperfection what we can’t in perfection. From this growing awareness, we obtain a faith in the divine love of our Creator and are able to stop blaming and being the victim; both of which inhibit our learning. Instead, we become students of our reality whose purpose is to teach us the ways of love through its imperfections. We learn through trial and error that only expressions of an unconditional love for all create truly desirous ripple effects, and this leads us to our ultimate choice.

The Ultimate Choice

With a self-creating nature, we choose what we will create. Thus, this reality presents us a choice; to choose to create a self-determined reality or a divine reality; to choose to create dark or light. It seems like an obvious answer but how many times do we do or want to do what we know we shouldn’t? How often do we find ourselves fearful of what God will do with our lives if we “trust” him? How hard is it to let go of control?

Initially, it may seem freeing to maintain control in a self-determined reality; to choose what we want, but it is our ultimate bondage because along with that choice comes the self-determined consciousness, where we judge good or bad, and that can only create darkness, or what is contrary to the ultimate good; for we don’t know as we ought to know. To choose to be totally governed by the divine consciousness that is always beyond us is our true freedom for in it we can only create according to the highest good as every expression is rooted in divine love and immortal harmony. It’s freedom from suffering, pain, fear, damaging control, and every other undesirable quality; and isn’t this the true freedom we desire? When we come to understand this choice, thus both sides of the decision, the choice becomes clear.

We are here to learn so that we can make a sincere informed choice in love for divine love as a self-creating creation. To make this choice wholeheartedly, in understanding, with no hesitation, wavering or turning back requires a certain level of awareness; one that our reality is constantly trying to enlighten us with. In all our learning, we are enabled to make the ultimate choice: to give up all choice that is counter to divine love, thus become totally governed by the divine consciousness. Thus, our hope isn’t in our ability to self-perfect, but in the unfailing nature of the divine love of our Creator to manifest our choice for oneness that brings to life our eternal expressions of divine potentials that take us into perfection beyond perfection.

Thank you Emily for sharing your gift with us.


The Path of Enlightenment

The Path of Enlightenment


When we connect to the Source and Center of all and embrace the divine truth and love it offers us, then we begin our journey to becoming enlightened. A path of enlightenment is one into a divine soul state.

It’s often assumed that a truly enlightened soul state is reserved for a chosen few. But it is only this belief that keeps it so. True enlightenment is available to every soul; for it is the eternal soul state for every soul. Truth is owned by no one, and is available to every one.

Enlightenment is an awareness of the truth, light, in such a way that it continuously alters our state of consciousness, thus our creative potentials. Light is awareness of what is true and real. Darkness is blindness by what is false and unreal. Enlightenment comes from being connected through the spirit to the Source and Center, our Creator. It is a soul state of heightened and expanding awareness of truth and divine love. It’s having the eternal light of life turned on in our inner soul’s perception, instead of stumbling around in the darkness of illusions.

Becoming Enlightened

As I begin to see the light among the shadows in my own journey, the understanding of an enlightened soul state grows more lucid. It’s a condition in which souls possess a certain amount of truths that define their being, others, the creation around them, and their Source. It’s a heightened and expanding state of awareness, as the soul is being set free from the illusions. It’s a path of seeking, following and embracing the truths in faith that are presented from the Source of Creation.

As certain truths become personal beliefs, which is the struggle of our soul journey, then inner peace, centeredness, calmness, and insightfulness are manifested; truths surrounding such concepts as present-mindedness, energetic vibrations, and soul responsibility, and the complementary dynamics of love and ego, real and unreal, truth and illusion, oneness and separation, life and death, perfect cause and self will, spiritual and material, light and dark, individuality and conformity, judgment and compassion, humility and confidence, responsiveness and creativeness, true self and false self, and so on.

We all possess the potential to journey the path of an enlightened soul. It’s found through a doorway in our soul that connects us to the divine consciousness of the Source, Creator and divine Father. It grows by a sincere desire that creates responsive actions in us that lead ever closer to the Source and Center. The closer we are to the Source the more enlightened we become as we move away from a mindset dwelling in outer darkness; which has very little awareness of truth, to a mindset governed by the principles of truth; light.

Those who learn how to access this realm of truth are on the path of enlightenment; which consists of endless gradients of growth and expression, as it is a path that never ends. How people access this inner place varies and it’s related to their individuality, personality and background. Though there are similarities such as; stillness of mind, quieted spirit, being receptive to listening, learning, and embracing the truth perceived, and a sincere desire to become that truth. Those who develop this connection reveal similar core truths; truths like the ones I mentioned above.

Our individuality is expressed in the facilitators that help us to enter this soulful place of connection to our Source; such as the varieties of meditation, melodic movement, music, nature, writing, journaling, supplemental reading, and guided practices. We borrow and share ideas from one another discovering what assists our own personal connection. The goal among all these variables is the same; to connect to the Voice of Truth that is beyond us and yet heard from within us. All these modalities of connection serve to extinguish all exterior voices that tell us, who we are, who we should be, or what we should do. They provide an ability to focus on the one Voice of Truth that flows from our loving Creator, a Voice we’ve all heard whether we realize it or not.

Enlightened souls spend amble time cultivating this connection to the light, thus how they become enlightened. They follow its leading and embrace the truth offered as they push through their own illusions and lies. In a humility, transparency of soul, and willingness to learn, they allow the truth to continuously evolve their beliefs setting them free from static constructs that prohibit soul growth. They allow this Voice of Truth to continuously bring them into a clearer and heightened perspective in all things. Their continuous movement away from judgment, control, fear, criticism, complaining, unforgiveness, ego, pride, arrogance, vengeance, greed, jealously, self-pity, and apathy, creates an expanding soul state of love, of which the entire human soul benefits from. They serve us all in the most profound way.

I extend my gratitude to these souls and the truths they share; which I only understood as I connected to the Source myself. Their souls create beautiful and powerful ripple effects into the overall awareness of the collective human soul. We honor them and ourselves not by holding them in isolation as an elite group, but by coming along side of them and embarking upon our own journey of enlightenment. Not to copy their path, but to discover our own through our unique individuality. The greatest gift we can give to our Creator, ourselves, those we love, and all of creation is to journey this path of the peacemakers into divine truth and love.






Living Light

Living Light


The past 14 years, to the day, I’ve been Stirring the Deep; seeking the true eternal light. During the last seven years, I’ve shared some of the teachings and instructions from the Spirit of Truth, as I received them.

This last series; Exploring the Mysteries of our Reality (categorized under Mysteries Revealed), shares the quintessential understandings of my soul journey from the darkness into the eternal light. The journey from the false fabricated self to the true divine self, from the simulated to the real; from the dark womb to the light of day, from the self-directed consciousness to the divine consciousness; from false images of our Creator to a personal perspective through an intimate engagement.

Where my soul journey will go now, only God knows. I feel I’m stepping into a new frontier of the soul. Through a continual increasing awareness, the perception of my reality is altering ever so slightly. I sit as an observer of my soul watching and listening, while I follow a leading beyond me yet within me. In this changing season, my blog is gaining a new reflection, symbolic of what I’m experiencing; an increasing light among the shadows.

Along with this new frontier, I’ve noticed a change in my perception of time in relation to my soul’s development. It is becoming real-time so that the journey is more present oriented. It’s feels like a transition from a past and future mindset to a present mindset.

The past resides as an instructional memory and the future as something impossible to comprehend as a force much higher than my being is constructing it. Every thought seems to create the next reflection, as the time lapse of the unreal is dissipating.

In this state of mind, the soul manifests its growth in real-time instead of learning by reflecting on past events, and hoping it can act according to what it has learned in the future, which it wasn’t able to fully do. The past and future mindset encases the soul like a shell and keeps it from residing in the present moment; the real. As, this shell cracks, also representing the false self, the present becomes the soul’s dwelling place. It is no longer like a seed bound in a shell with hopes of growth, but diligently matures like a plant slowly and steadily rising out of the earth.

Journal Reflections of Living in the Light

The shadows of the mind fade as a dim light breaks forth. The heart lightens at the awakening rays. The soul swells with the realization that divine love has always enfolded it; but it was unknown by a mind cast in the shadows of death; shadows that clouded its perspective to believe otherwise. In this reception of love, it senses it can begin to truly love, without condition.

The soul expands with the substance of its desires, hopes, and prayers as its oneness with the Creator is actualized and realized; which becomes one in the same act. Each cell tingles as it responds to the gentle inflow of the loving light. They take on new formations; beautiful crystalline shapes revealing the magnificence of their Creator. Joy dances across the lips. Eyes twinkle with eternal light. Divine love tenderly enraptures the heart. All as the Creator establishes a oneness with this soul prepared as His dwelling place.

The soul begins to stand tall in the outpouring of the Creator’s mercies and grace that lift it out of its sleep state and into a higher echelon of being. Immortal harmony takes up its governance. The eternal light of the highest good takes over the once darkened perceptions, thoughts, emotions, words, expressions and actions. The soul transcends the mortal mind and steps upon the threshold of immortality. As the soul mind meticulously infuses with light, the soul is set free. Every soul element flows in unison with divinity and creates a melodic harmony of inner peace that resonates throughout the soul. The soul is one, united to the One, in oneness. Out of the pit of darkness it arises as the chords of death break away, and new roots of eternal life take their place.

The soul chose to love. Love responded.


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