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A Time of Stillness and Silence

A Time of Stillness and Silence


These are transformative days.

The heavenly Father is leading me to a time of sacred stillness and quietness until August 31st.

During this time, I am offering up to Him all my communication venues of revelation and insight; blog posts, YouTube videos, and mentoring conversations.  I am giving this time to the heavenly Father with understanding of its purpose in part, but what it fully holds only He knows as He is guiding each step, each day.  Thus, you may not hear from me until the end of August. As always in speaking truths, I’m leaving it up to Him.

This is a wonderful time, but a time of being separated from various things. I will be able to share with you much more about this period once I’ve journeyed through it.  Sometimes God calls us to be separate so He can create something new. I feel this is what He is doing.


Flying: Faith in Motion


Faith in Motion


To be a living creature, an eternal spirit being, means the spirit of God within us crafts every moment and every movement. Thus, we live by faith in God alone. Faith is what moves our wings to fly. (my previous posts lay the foundation for this “flying” analogy)

To move, thus fly, in oneness with God, requires a heart fashioned by God. This is the inner work of Christ within our Holy of Holies. This is a heart born out of Truth and Love. Once this heart is fashioned so that we desire to love perfectly, and desire only the ways, wisdom and truths of the Father, then the work of gaining a new mind of spiritual understanding follows. This mind forms by buying and selling the gold refined in fire with Christ; who is the wisdom of God. This is gaining understanding of truth and love regarding the interworking and details of our lives.

Once the heart and mind are established in the truths and love of God, then the faith that holds the power of God is able to go forth from us and into the earth; into our lives and the lives of others. This power going out is how we outwardly reflect God, which is our personality (garments), which is His light reflecting from us. This faith expands until it fills our conscious and unconscious realities.

Faith, the power of God, streaming into the earth begins with a prompting or a desire, to do or say a certain thing. Our words and actions are the channels in which faith moves through. Faith without works is dead because it travels through our works/actions. These promptings come out of the awakened Holy of Holies within us for the heavenly Father speaks to us between the cherubim. (Holy of Holies in You)

Channel of Faith

An example of a channel of faith the heavenly Father has established for faith to flow through in my life, is this blog and my videos. Every time I write or speak, I trust Him that He does it all. I trust He will not only give me the words, but will use them perfectly to each hearer. This faith comes from the circle of trust within the Holy of Holies, and the outer circle of trust that connects the spiritual reality to the physical reality.

Inner Wheel: Circle of Trust with God

I trust the Heavenly Father, and He trusts me because He knows I trust Him. This is the circle of trust created in the Holy of Holies. It’s the inner wheel of the wheels of the living creatures in the book of Ezekiel. Ezekiel 1:21

This circle of trust is built by understanding. It comes from knowing the character of the heavenly Father and how He works.

The heavenly Father governs us from the inside, not the outside. Thus, His reign in our souls comes through understanding. When we understand His character and ways, we trust Him. Trust is the fruit of knowing. And further, we as come to know Him, we desire to be like Him.

In this desire to be like Him, our understanding expands as we obey Christ’s teachings to our spirit. As we follow His teachings, understanding increases because we experience why they are indeed perfect. Obedience to His ways fuels understanding, which fuels our trust in Him, the circle of trust.

When we understand why He wants us to do certain things and not others, we WANT to do them. Understanding creates desire. To live by desire is freedom, joy, rest, and abundance. Therefore, in His love for us, He leads by promptings, understanding and wisdom. This brings us to the outer wheel.

Outer Wheel: Circle of Trust to Outside

Once a circle of trust is established within us. Then God can create a medium for His spirit, power and work to flow into the earth. The dynamic of trust circulating from within and interacting upon the earth creates the outer wheel, just as the outer part of the wheel of a car has contact with the road. This wheel is the dynamic of God’s power moving from the inner wheel and interacting with the physical realm. Thus, this wheel turns by our faith.

Back to my example, this blog/video is a venue in which God’s power/spirit connects to the earth.  It is a medium that my faith in God flows through. Because I write and speak in faith, it infuses God’s power into it. It’s a physical connection to others, which possesses a faith in God, thus it’s the outer wheel by which His spirit moves upon the earth.

The faith or power of God creates results that are far beyond our own abilities, which is a testimony to His work and power. But there is more …

My husband, my confidant in every spiritual understanding, infuses his faith into this wheel as well. He trusts God to govern what I say and to use it as He wills. The faith my husband puts in God in my output enhances the overall faith, thus power, poured into this work. His faith is like a booster shot to my faith. I have trust in my husband’s faith for I know the source; his heart crafted by God, which I see continually. This dynamic of another’s faith complementing ours so that it strengthens ours making it more “full body” is what Paul meant when he said,  “I now rejoice in my sufferings for you, and fill up in my flesh what is lacking in the afflictions of Christ, for the sake of His body, which is the church,” Colossians 1:24 Through his faith, my husband lays his hands (will) upon me in these “works” and the combination of our faith is far more powerful than mine alone. 1 Timothy 4:14

When every aspect of our lives reflects the inner/outer wheel dynamic, so that we don’t move unless we are moved by God’s spirit, we are eternal spirit creations.

One important checkpoint, when there is a channel for faith to flow through, our perspective of this outgoing power/faith through us is humility. When God’s spirit, thus power, is flowing through us, what we feel is humility. This is what we “see” when we “see” God from the backside as His power is going out of us. This is why Jesus said He was gentle and meek. This humility is a combination of realizing it is all His work and not ours, we are completely dependent upon Him, and we rejoice because of His perfect love and faithfulness toward us.

When we partake of the heavenly Father’s heart, then our trust follows for His love is perfect and He is faithful. This trust is the fuel to moving in faith. Without faith it is impossible to do what God asks, thus impossible to please Him, for all He asks is done only by and in His power and not our own. When we fly, we are at rest, for all is done through God’s power. When our inner wheel and outer wheels are established, there is no limit to what God can do through our little ole’ lives, even to moving mountains.


Desiring to Fly

Desiring to Fly


For years I sought my legs to be healed, but this weekend my prayer of 17 years changed along with a much deeper understanding. I now desire to have wings. Here is a bit of what I learned.

Walking Trees

Mark 8:24 And he looked up and said, “I see men like trees, walking.”

We are trees (an analogy to our spiritual condition) and the problem is we walk.  In this verse, “walking” comes from a root word meaning to tread upon, to trample, to smite, to treat with insult or contempt. Every time we “walk” (speak, act, or move) we have the propensity to hurt others. This is a huge bondage and affliction to those who desire to love perfectly.

In a dead soul-state, we trample others uncaringly and often intentionally through various mindsets, words, and actions. We condemn, blame, hold grudges, hurt with our words, don’t forgive, oppress, control, manipulate and so on. Death is a void of love. As we start to awaken to the love of God out of our death sleep, thus awaken to love itself, we no longer want to cause others harm, we only want healing for all. And, the closer we draw near to the source of love, the stronger this desire becomes. Yet our personalities that have been crafted in corruption possess an enormous propensity to hurt others despite our desire to love.

Our personalities are our instructions on how to operate in this life. Through them we communicate and interact with others. These are the “garments” we wear. Just like the actual clothes we wear reflect our personality. The foundations of our personalities, our automatic reactions, habits and ways, are fashioned by many things including pain and corruption. Therefore without effort or even desiring to, we hurt others and ourselves. As long as our personalities remain the same, we continually harm others despite our heart to love.

Having a heart desirous to love and yet a personality that harms becomes our deepest affliction, for how is our very makeup changed so that we never cause harm?

We have to become flying trees (butterflies).

Flying Trees

We have to become a creature of the air moved only by the wind (spirit), our wings, and no longer a creature of the earth moved by our own will, our legs.

To love as our hearts’ desire, our personality has to radically change from one articulating itself from a foundation of corruption and pain, and become one expressing itself from a foundation of love and wisdom/truth. It’s like a caterpillar changing into a butterfly, nothing stays the same. Thus, we need new parents; Love and Wisdom, who are our heavenly Father/Mother, the Godhead.

With Love and Wisdom as our parents, first they fashion a new heart in us in their likeness. This occurs as we feast on the pure truth from Christ’s spirit within and start walking according to that truth. As we grow in love and understanding, a new heart is fashioned within us. This new heart is the establishment of the Holy of Holies within us.

Once our heart is re-created, then our garments, our personality, is re-fashioned in such a way that our actions align with the purified heart within. This transition comes as we start to take flight. We take flight when we become solely powered by the spirit of God. His spirit is liken to the wind in that it moves yet is unseen. Though we have seen reflections of our new heart in our actions, as long as we are walking we are in imminent danger of trampling someone else.  We can’t walk perfectly no matter our desire. We have to obtain a new mode of movement where we are at rest and only the spirit of God carries us, thus to fly.

When our inner chambers, Holy of Holies, have been re-created by truth to hold the spirit of God, His spirit moves in. As His spirit/wind within us starts to stir and move, we start to take flight. He begins to take over all our modalities and govern them. We are no longer creatures of the earth, dust, flesh, but we become living creatures of the air, wind, spirit. As the spirit of God moves us, our personality, garments, begins to reflect our Parents. They control all of us, thus our personality now reflects their nature. Thus, we are able to truly love.

Like a caterpillar, in this transition, we lose our mode of movement throughout the earth, our legs, and we gain a new mode of movement, wings, by which we travel through the air. This transition is part of our spiritual metamorphosis of becoming a caterpillar to a butterfly, a walking tree to a flying tree.

When we are filled with the spirit of God, this is what we become; a creation of the air. We become a living creation with wings, as the only entity governing our movement is the spirit of God from within us. What a glorious state this is. This is our salvation, when we are saved from ourselves, our own corruption.


Metamorphosis of the Spirit

Metamorphosis of the Spirit


Monarch with caterpillar

Our spiritual transformation is a metamorphosis from one creation to another.  From a dead spiritual entity, which continually feeds on death, which perpetuates death, to a living spiritual entity that continually drinks in the sweet nectar of life and reflects the beauty of the Creator’s character.

Our merciful God created this earth to instruct us in His ways.  A beautiful illustration of our transformation is found in the journey of a caterpillar into a butterfly.

As a caterpillar has to die to its current form to transform into a butterfly, we too have to die to our flesh form to be transformed into a spirit creation; a creation reflective of the Creator’s likeness and of the spirit (air).

Stage One: The Seed/Egg

There is a seed of life in each of us. It’s the seed of eternity (Ecc 3:11), and the seed that holds the DNA of our Creator. With the right conditions, the seed within grows and we transform into entities reflecting our Father’s likeness, His character.  A seed looks nothing like the living creation it becomes; yet it contains the source code that is needed to become a living creation.

What are the conditions of spiritual change; the secrets of spiritual metamorphosis?

Stage Two: Feasting on the Green Tree/Eat and Eat

The main activity of the caterpillar is to eat … and eat. It’s required for them to grow to transform. Likewise, our main job is to eat to grow. We are to feast constantly on the Tree of Life, Christ spoken word to us from within our souls. This nourishment isn’t doctrines of religion, but the pure word of the spirit of God spoken directly to our spirit by the spirit interpreter, the Holy Spirit.

Worm that Doesn’t Die

As we begin to feast on the words of life, we cease to feast on death (lies, corruption, deception, false doctrines, wisdom of the world) little by little. These words are the pure words of truth, which comes from a pure conscience within us (Christ the Internal Teacher), spoken to our spirits and received in understanding. We need only to feast on these words of life to transform, but we must feast and feast continually.

If we continue to feast on death, we are the worm that doesn’t die, thus doesn’t change.

“where ‘Their worm does not die, And the fire is not quenched.’ Mark 9:44

Do you know what this worm that doesn’t die feeds on? Dead bodies, death. (found in the definition of worm in the Strong’s concordance)

Through false doctrines, many people have been misled that this life is neutral ground, not heaven and not hell. It’s our own spiritual deadness that makes our reality hell. Hell continues as our reality as along as we feed on death. In feeding on death, we are the worms that do not die and transform into new creations.

At this stage, our purpose in life is to feast on the truth, the bread of heaven, so we can transform from our worm state and leave Sheol.

Stage Three: Inner transformation/Chrysalis

After feasting for some time on the green plant, the Tree of life (Christ), we start a deep internal conversion. When His words of life become our internal truth, it starts to change everything, beginning with our heart from stone to flesh. We mature to a certain point by His truths that we die (abandon and put off) to all that isn’t of the truth.

This is a time in our lives where we experience intense positive change within our souls. At our core, our character starts to take on Christ’s likeness. Once this occurs a flood of transformations begin. We start thinking, speaking and acting differently. Loving kindness, healing, and deliverance from entrapments of our flesh manifest. It’s a tremendous stage of spiritual growth that affects every dynamic of our lives.  And like being in a cocoon, we become separated from the world. Often we are cut off from many worldly things, people and activities so that our growth can take place unhindered.

Stage Four: New Creations/Butterfly

Once we come to a certain level of spiritual maturity, our flesh skins start to break away. As the caterpillar sheds its skins, we shed the skins of death/affliction/ bitterness, and what comes forth is something altogether different and beautiful. This stage comes with a great “earthquake” to our lives. As our old skins, which are of the dust of the earth start quaking, splitting open and breaking away, all that we have known starts to change as we become a creation of the air and no longer of the dust. The wind, the breath of God, starts to fill our new wings, spiritual mind, and we embark upon a new life as creations of the spirit/air. Everything is growing out of a point of perfection, His spirit within us; truly a new beginning and a new life of life.

Our appearance becomes a reflection of God’s glory/character. A butterfly’s wings don’t hold the pigment of their brilliant colors, but they have a reflective quality that reflects the light in such a way that it creates their magnificent brilliance. So too, we are mirrors to our Father’s brilliance. When we transform spiritually, our mortal bodies are clothed with new skins of eternity, thus bearing the likeness of Christ, who is the reflection of the heavenly Father.

This glorious transformation occurs in the end at the return of Christ, which is the brilliance of God abiding within mankind. What lies ahead, I do not know as no one has gone through this full metamorphosis in the earth, as it is only possible upon Christ’s return. It is through the fullness of His spirit within us that we become living eternal creations. No mind has conceived what He has in store for those who love Him.

Our eyes are starting to twinkle with the brilliance of His reflection.

Take a moment when you have time to look into a butterfly’s journey. You will find many overlaps to our spiritual journey.



A Time of Transition

A Time of Transition


We are in a time of transition as one age comes to a close and a new age begins. The Kingdom of Heaven, which has been separate from this earth’s reality as a spiritual kingdom, is becoming the kingdom of this earth; the flesh, physical. The birth pangs of the earth transitioning into the Kingdom of Heaven are upon us.

The kingdom of darkness/evil that has reigned over the physical realm has begun its descent. Thus, the ways of evil will turn upon those who do them, and the ways of righteousness will prosper those who do them. It’s time to abide in purity. The power to live by and according to the spirit of Christ has come through understanding and revelation.

Within the firstborn, the Kingdom of Light started as a mustard seed and has been growing. They have been transitioning for some time now. As a plant breaks above the soil, this Kingdom’s reign within them is breaking through and entering into this earth’s reality as it overtakes their reality. They are the light bearers through this transition.

This transition is occurring because the heavenly Father/Mother’s love is being made manifest. This means all mankind will be refined within their souls to be in harmony with this perfect love. A great healing is upon the earth, which is the fulfillment of the salvation that Christ brought by bringing the fullness of the Godhead into this realm by bringing it into mankind.

The Godhead

Jesus Christ holds the fullness of God, thus the male and female side of God, the King and Priest. Not only has this been a time of a marriage between the pure virgins and Christ, but also the coming together of these two aspects of the spirit of the Godhead. When Jesus Christ ascended after His resurrection, part of His spirit, the spirit of truth, was given to mankind to purify souls to be able to contain the fullness of God (Father/Mother). God couldn’t come in fullness until souls were first purified to receive Him and be His temple at the end of the age. What brings in the end is when the spirit of the divine is no longer spilt as it was at Christ’s death/resurrection, but is reunited within mankind as one. This establishment of God upon the earth and union of the Father and Mother occur within the souls of mankind for they are the creations to hold the spirit of God.

This fusion, the fullness of the Godhead, possesses great power. It isn’t a power like that of mankind. It’s a power that comes in gentleness, strength in weakness, and perfect love. Perfect love is the true power. Those who have been united to Christ understand this to be true, for it’s this perfect love that healed every infirmity of their soul; an impossible feat for any person.

The mother side of God, the Holy Spirit, Wisdom, the female voice in the Proverbs, was welcomed into the hearts of those diligently seeking truth and those with a love for the truth. At Her instruction, (she is a part of Christ), these souls became prepared to receive the fullness of God thus the other aspect of God, the perfect love, the King, the Father. In this union, they hold the fullness as Jesus held the fullness when on the earth. She has been dismissed, oppressed, overlooked and trampled. But as her King comes, all that trampled her will be set aright by the purifying fire of the Father.

Ascension and Taking Flight

Those who have diligently sought the true heavenly Father/Mother have already experienced their birth pangs (intense purging and renewal of their minds); birth (becoming governed fully by the spirit of God) and now they embark on a new beginning (the spiritual kingdom infused into their physical reality). They are learning to fly, as they have become creations of the air, of the spirit. They are transitioning from a diligent seeking heart to being fully led as they enter the eternal rest. They are like a lamp that emanates pure light, spirit of Christ. All they possess is under the governance of the divine spirit of the Godhead. In entering their rest, they enter into the very heart of God. It is His lifeblood that pumps through their veins, thus the power of regeneration.

These have partaken of the wedding ceremony of Christ. They have united to Christ in their flesh. They also have united to souls of mankind in a new way, in a bond of love. In this time of establishing their vows, their commitment is to love and honor ALL of creation as they allow the spirit of Christ, the spirit of perfect love, to flow through them.

Entering the Refining Fire

For those who didn’t embrace the spirit of truth and thus transition, they are now entering their refinement. Like one who is sick, as their healing begins their physical state will get worse before it gets better, as all that is causing the sickness (sin) is purged out. This is the revealing of hearts, lives being turned inside out, as all the idols that covered their nakedness are dissolved. It’s the beginning of the end of corruption’s reign in their soul. There is no more escaping the consequences of evil; hypocrisy, hatred, lusts, unforgiveness, cruelty, bitterness, envy, strife, dishonor, and torments to others. These acts against love will cause great affliction in those who do them. All that will remain at the end of this period of refinement is the purified, righteousness and renewed spirit that is of the one true God. This refining will continue until God is all in all.

Pick Up Your Mat and Walk

For everyone, it’s time to pick up our mats and walk; to walk in the path of righteousness, which are the path of life. It’s time to believe the healing we have sought is available. This healing starts within the soul, as true healing does. We need only to step out in faith in obedience to perfect love to see the power of God manifested in our lives. This means doing the right thing as directed by the spirit of divine understanding coming from within. It’s a time of purging all that isn’t of the Father/Mother’s pure love, and walking in perfect love. Desire to be led by this love in all ways always.