Goodbye My Old Friend
My inner child speaks in rhythmic refrain
As I proclaim my freedom from death’s reign:
My old friend it’s time to let you go.
You stood as my hope and comfort from life’s pain
As thoughts of you flooded my mind like drowning rain.
You promised to set me free from unbearable afflictions
To take me through the consummate transition.
To steal me away in the night into endless sleep
To send me through the gates of eternal peace.
You promised to take me to a distant land
Far from the cries of suffering I could hardly stand.
“This will be your eternal home
When I come to take you as my own.”
Your proclamations of my end
Came as a voice of a much needed friend.
When life seemed kind you stood quietly waiting
For bound in time my joy was fleeting.
Again, I welcomed your coming as life tore me in pieces.
Your darkening touch would save me from taunting curses.
Thankfully you didn’t answer this mistaken call
For you were but a part of my illusionary fall.
Unwavering you stood as savior in my dream of suffering
The one to lay me to rest and end all my struggling.
When fear was my enemy, you were my friend,
My surety that his torments would eventually end.
Embracing you made me feel fearless and strong
But now I see my foolishness and wrong.
So I give up the illusion of you.
My hope in you disguised my true liberation.
Joyous life and peace hid behind your empty deliberations.
How could you – nothingness – offer me redemption?
Disguised in empty promises, you came as a friend
Offering something new and wonderful in the end.
Phantom whispers of release, freedom and joy
But you were but a thief to steal, kill and destroy
So I gave up the illusion of you and chose One who is true.
This One guarded my soul while I dreamt of you.
Now his divine love is my only truth.
His love fails me not and feeling its strength
It’s all I desire, so I let you go for the True.
In His open heart resides my eternal peace.
There is no delay in his timeless gifts of grace.
They, as He, are forever present within the holy place.
He stood beyond the narrow gate.
In a Light so bright it brought me to a new fate.
His love beckons me out of the illusion of you.
My heart rejoices at his call I now hear as true
And his voice steadily leads me into eternal youth.
No longer through a barren land do I roam.
Today, in this present moment, I am home.
So, I leave you in the place of forgotten dreams
And empty my mind of your endless games.
I take back the treasure I so easily gave away in vain.
Goodbye old imaginary friend, your loss is my eternal gain.
February 8, 2018