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Conquering Our Soul, Undoing the Bondage

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Conquering Our Soul:

Undoing the Bondage

 

Our soul is like a territory held in bondage by an enemy. When we are awakened to the state of our soul, then we realize our need for someone mightier (Jesus Christ) than ourselves and our enemy to deliver us from the entrapment. When we accept that Jesus is the One to deliver us, then He comes and claims the beachfront of our lives. So we are His, however, aspects of our soul are still untouched territory. As we abide in His Word and are willing and listening, bit by bit Jesus makes advances taking over the territory of our soul as King. Under His Kingship, we live free and as we were created to live. I want to explore some ways He makes those advances.

For years I experienced pain in my body in reoccurring areas. It wasn’t unbearable, but at my young age, it was far more than I should be experiencing. I knew something was way off. I tried many external remedies but nothing worked, but each “cure” presented a new hope. A friend told me about what a Cranial Sacral Therapist had done for her, so I found someone in my area. During the session, as she was working on my neck and head, she asked me if I had experienced any trauma in that area as a child. At first I thought no, but then as I laid there several experiences came to mind, but they weren’t of a physical nature but an emotional one. That thought process led me to see a deep trauma in my beliefs – that I lacked a sense of value for myself. Until that point, I never fully realized this debilitating belief. I went home knowing I had stumbled upon something significant. I realized I needed to stop looking outward for solutions and look inward.

As I brought this issue into my quiet time with God, He started unraveling it bit by bit. It ended up being a core issue that underscored many other issues (almost all of them, including my pain). I started to see the massive ripple affect of that ill-belief spreading to every area of my life. Eagerly, I prayed and listened to God’s instruction, and He started laying it all out. He showed me how most of my thoughts, actions, and decisions were tied to a lack of value for myself. He showed me where this idea started and was reinforced in childhood. As He took me back to painful memories, ones I feared to face or simply didn’t want to out of pride, I travelled with Him trusting His guidance and He covered them with His love, truth and forgiveness. As pain appeared in other areas in my body, I listened and He led me to other issues all related to my core one. He opened up each area of anger, pain, and fear, and brought in His truth. When He was done, I held an unchanging priceless value in myself as His child. However, many of my habitual ways of responding and acting were still reflective of that girl who had no value. Through awareness, abiding in His Word and prayer, those actions started to fade and were replaced by ones based on who I truly am as His unique creation and this transition is in progress today.

I share this story, because 1) it demonstrates a type of progression in how the territory of our soul is conquered by God, and 2) many people have this core issue of a lack of value (from childhood rejection, abuse, neglect, modeling of parents, and so on). Some know it and many deny it, but I see it in many people. When we lack value we spend our lives trying to prove and earn our worthiness and most of what we do is a result of this lack of value, therefore, we aren’t able to be completely surrendered to God’s will. We are more driven to prove or earn our worthiness. God calls us to be surrendered completely to Him and that surrender is a journey. For many facing core issues is a significant part of that journey. But we have to stop the madness of trying to prove and earn and abide in God’s presence and seek His deliverance. God wants us out of that bondage and will allow or do what it takes in our lives to bring us to this understanding, to healing and freedom.

The Progression of Conquering Our Soul

First, an uncomfortable situation arises in our life to get us seeking, like a physical aliment (as I had), intense trial, or difficult relationship. We live in blindness to our own soul and something has to wake us up. When all is fine, we don’t seek. But when things aren’t, it’s to push us to search from the depth of our soul. Often what starts us seeking is something that gets our full attention, and it is different for different people. How better to get our attention than with something we really care about?

Second, from seeking we get a word of truth about the state of our soul that comes to us through a dream, person, the Spirit, or God’s Word. When that word or insight resonates strongly with us, like the issue of value did for me, this is our first awareness of seeing Christ on the edge of this section of our soul ready to take it over and deliver us.

Third, through spiritual weaponry (like faith, prayer, meditating on His Word, the Bible, and /or fasting) the anchor of that stronghold is uprooted. For me the stronghold was the lie I had no value, God uprooted that ill-belief and replaced it with the truth that I have infinite unchanging value. One point on fasting, it is a tool that when God calls us to use it (He decision not ours), it can be extremely powerful. It’s an act of faith that we are completely reliant on His Word for life. Matthew 17:19-21

Fourth, once the anchor is uprooted then there is a time (usually much longer) of restructuring and rebuilding, like when a land is taken over by a new regime it has to be established on their rules. As the rebuilding occurs in this certain area, many issues may spring up that are related to that area like anger, modeling (what we learned from our parents), and unforgiveness. Each one of these has to be addressed and replaced with truth and love. This work of rebuilding is God’s. Our part is to seek His deliverance, listen to and obey His instruction, abide in His Word that cuts through our soul healing and restoring, pray, and hold onto His truth as it’s established in us.

After believing lies for so long it sometimes takes awhile for the truth to truly be ours. Because of the strong connections in our brain established from acting certain ways for so long, it sometimes takes awhile for us to act according to the deliverance that is happening in our soul. But once the anchor is uprooted, then we should see progress forward however slow. Building a new way of behaving requires great patience, trust and perseverance. It requires that we trust God who begun a good work in us will complete it (Philippians 1:6). As this area is rebuilt, God moves onto the next one to conquer. If we are diligent to heed His instruction, follow and trust in Him to do what He promises to do, we will experience true freedom in our soul. The good news is that once our core issue is addressed it resolves many other issues that came from it. Though, it may be a longer process initially, it is delivering us from many problems in our lives.

If you are struggling right now, perhaps it is the Spirit trying to get your attention. Ask and seek why you are going through what you are. Be aware of insights you have about your situation. Pray about them don’t ignore or push them to the side. Dive into them. They may be God on the forefront ready to move and waiting for you to call Him in. Deliverance requires your involvement. Let His pure Word penetrate your heart, pray, meditate on His truth daily and follow His direction and He will take over and rebuild you into the new creation you are in Him.

In my experience this process can be painful at times as our depths are unraveled and exposed and it isn’t instant by any means. It is a journey, sometimes taking years, but He is faithful to finish what He began. What are a couple of years compared to a lifetime of freedom? Most of us give up. Stop trusting. Stop seeking deliverance. Stop listening. Stop abiding in His Word. Don’t give up. Believe God is good and desires you to be free. And remember it is God who starts, directs, and completes this journey. It is by the Spirit’s lead not our own initiative.

Matthew 7:11 If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!

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Author: Rachel

My passion is cultivating a deep relationship with God and helping others to do the same. I LOVE sharing with others insights that God has taught me and hearing what God has taught them... thus my blog, Stirring the Deep. My focus is on a relationship, not a religion. Life is in the relationship. I believe in a balance and unity of body, mind and spirit. I feel it's important to nurture all three for they all affect each other. I try to live in the present, where the Holy Spirit is. And I try to do all with the motive of love. I've come to believe life is a journey and not a destination. It isn't about perfection, is it about growth.

29 thoughts on “Conquering Our Soul, Undoing the Bondage

  1. Great Post. Faith is the key towards addressing the challenges one may face today. Prayer, meditating and understanding scripture are so vital in the life of the believer. We must pray for each other at all times. Jesus faced challenges in His day. We all have a cross to carry. Lord increase our faith. Great job, on a difficult subject.

    • Dr. Lee – You are so very right – prayer, meditating and understanding scripture is vital – the Word is life – our life.

  2. “But once the anchor is uprooted, then we should see progress forward however slow.”

    Those last two words Rachel I think are what discourages us…”however slow”. We want change now and are not always willing to let God do the work He needs to, in His own time. Obedience and faith are not one-shot deals, they require daily diligence on our part, and often we’re only willing to exercise them for a season.

    • Joe – I agree Joe – we want instant – whatever it is – but with God it is the journey of rebuilding that develops a strong intimacy with God as we walk each step with Him. If it was fast our relationship wouldn’t be as strong. It is like a marriage – it is the years of going through stuff together that makes it rich, deep and intimate – not the quick honeymoon. We often think God is there to do stuff for us or for us to become a “good” person – when really He desires a relationship and all we go through is to move us deeper into knowing, trusting and loving Him.

  3. Rachel – There is so much here! I am glad our Father has worked with you to help you through this part of your life that needed rebuilding. I think I can identify with that particular issue of always working for worthiness; it has always been hard for me to accept that I am flawed and unworthy in any way or in any area of my life. I know He is helping me through this, and it is becoming easier and more wonderful to not only accept that I have fallen short but also hide in Him and rest in His shadow because He can take care of any sin or any flaw!

    These four stages you discuss were really helpful; in some ways, I think I’ve been through them without naming or describing them so explicitly, and it’s encouraging to know I’m not alone in taking a LONG time to get through the rebuilding/restructuring stage.

    As always, this was really helpful for me! and I’ll probably be passing this along to a friend or two that I think would be encouraged and instructed by it!

    • Ruth – that is the essence of fellowship – sharing and encouraging one another. I think we are more alike than we think. Sometimes we feel we are the only ones facing something – but in reality many people are facing a similar struggle – that is why it is so nice to share.

  4. Great post, Rachel. Cheri (my daughter) and I just finished listening to John Eldridge’s audio book, “Walking with God,” and he spends a lot of time talking along the same lines as you have here.

    The thing that really blows me away is that people I would swear had it all together (like you and John) still have struggles. No matter how carefully our parents may protect us as we grow up, the enemy always manages to slip in and hurt and wound us in so many ways. And he’s so sneaky we often don’t even know we’ve been stolen from or that areas of our heart have been killed and destroyed.

    Jesus came to give us life, but it does take time for us to let him in and to explore and heal all those deep and damaged places in our hearts. Thanks for another truly life-changing post.

    Love, Cindy

    • Cindy – I was thinking about how we are all born into sin . . . and for all of us there are ramifications of that – but God wants us completely free and the journey that He takes us on not only sets us free but He uses it to build an incredible intimacy with Him, and uses our journey to minister, comfort and encourage others – if we are willing. How perfect are His ways!

  5. “Wonderful” post Rachel! Really good information for a lot of times we really don’t understand that God is using our trials to “Get our Attention”,to draw us closer to him and also to draw the unbeliever to Jesus. Happy New Year I hope it’s a great one and it will be walking with the Lord is wonderful!

  6. Hi Rachel, this was a great message that struck a nerve in me. I thought back into my past and realized how many times I set myself up for failure with my lack of self-worth. I always felt I had to excel in everything in order to be worthy of someone’s love. It was a hard road that I traveled and I made many mistakes. But now I can see that God was truly with me in those painful times and he was working out something far greater than I could have understood back then. And because I have been shown such immeasurable love by Christ, I can share this love with those who are going through the same struggle.

    • Marianne – what similar journeys we shared. You brought up a great point – because we have been down those dark paths but are now free and abiding in the love of God, we can connect and comfort those in similar situations. People want to feel understood and when they do it opens up their hearts – with similar experiences we can connect to others in a deeper why and hopefully plant seeds to lead them into the love of God.

  7. Hi Rachel,

    The thing i most identify with this subject is in relation to the taming of my tongue. Whenever i’ve had a slip of the tongue i’ve gone to God about it and asked Him to change me, bcos it grieves me whenever it happens, grieving the Holy Spirit.

    I don’t think i’ve received any answers as to why i’ve said things out of character, things i don’t want to say, but just came out under pressure. You know, like, is it something from my past or whatever. But just being aware of the problem and seeking help, as no man can tame the tongue, we need grace, i can testify to growth in that area.

    I agree Jesus touches every part of our being, and that’s a work over a lifetime. I’m not sure how much we need to probe our inner self though, rather than simply walk in faith and obedience daily, responding to the Holy Spirit.

    • Ian, you brought up a point that is often debated within ourselves and among us – is it necessary to go backwards into the past inorder to go forward? Here are my thoughts thus far on the topic from my experience . . . I think we need to follow the Spirit and follow where He leads us whether it is either a pushing forward or going back. For me I tried to push forward but I was going nowhere. It changed everything for the Spirit to go back (briefly) and understand the source of my stuff so that my false beliefs were replaced with the truth. It was His leading not mine and I think that is key. It wasn’t a long drawn out rehashing (like those that stay in therapy fo years over their past) – but an awareness of what transpired in my soul and the false beliefs I held as a result. Once the truth was instilled in me then I left the past behind – because I could, if that makes sense. False beliefs, regardless of what they are in, unforgiveness, and the like are death – and I think God desires to purge us of them and replace them with truth and love. Our beliefs affect everything we do. But it is His timing and His lead we must follow for He is the healer not us. We are all different and unique and God knows exactly what each one of us needs to be set free.

  8. Rachel,

    Combining one thing you said, ‘Many of us give up’, with one thing Cindy said, ‘the enemy always manages to slip in and hurt and wound us’, I will mention the obvious: many of us give up because we have an enemy.

    I wrote a piece a few months ago that I called ‘The Wound’. It is all about what you – and Cindy – have said here. I’ve not posted it because it is a little longer than what I normally post. I will however send it to your email. You may find it interesting.

    Mike

    • Mike, love how you pulled our comments together. I got your email and can’t wait to read it. Thanks for passing it along!

    • Mike, I just finished reading “the Wound” it is a very powerful piece because of the truth it tells. I’m so thankful you shared it with me. It reinforces how the enemy can take advantage of instances in our life, big and small, and cause all sorts of pain, doubt, fear and false belief from them. Understanding God’s love is so fundamental and even as I prepare for my next post on Monday about a powerful lesson I learned in prayer – to believe that God loves us affects everything – it makes sense it is an area the enemy would attack the strongest. And when you lose or never had a sense of value for yourself then it is difficult or near impossible to really accept someone’s love including God’s. But God desires us to know that He loves us and if we keep seeking I believe we will know in the depths of our soul because He has conquered all and is mightier than anything we have faced or will face. This idea of love reinforces the thought of how important it is for each one of us to spend time each day cultivating our relationship with God in His Word because as we do our relationship grows and we know His love.

  9. This is a powerful story and interesting post. One of my prayers this year is for God to strengthen and give me more insight and understanding into his words. God bless and Happy New Year 🙂

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  11. Dear Rachel,

    thank you for your post. I have been suffering from a health problem which very similar to yours resulted in pain and muscle spasms throughout my body, it was so bad for me that I had to leave work. I tired so many things, massage, medicine, homeopathy, cranal sacral therapy all made thinsg worse. I eventually lost my flat and had to move in with my in-laws but I never knew that all of this was in God’s plan for me. My lack of faith, my pride, my family, my sense of self created holes in my soul which allowed demonic spirits entry into my soul – my hedge was down! But the Lord has been so kind to me, He led me to a deliverance church, my faith has increased dramatically and I am being baptised by full immersion as a testimony of my faith. I now know that God loves me and that I am not cursed and that I will get better and all of this has happaned to me in a space of 2 weeks. I can now look with hope AND faith to my full healing, and I thank Abba so much for His care for me.

  12. Hi Rachel,

    May I have permission to publish your article
    “Conquering Our Soul, Undoing the Bondage” on my website, http://www.dovepress.net? It will be published with your name and link to this website.

    Blessings,
    Lynne Erickson Valle

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