The Greater the Victory
The greater the possibility of defeat, the greater the victory.
Soon after we moved to California my husband and I were at a point of having spent all our savings on trying to start a business. We had no jobs and a house mortgage that could cover three houses the same size in Tennessee, where we moved from. Yet, we believed that God put us in this house. A steadily draining bank account with no replenishment in site seemed to be a pending defeat waiting to consume our lives. The waves were crashing into the boat and starting to sink us.
You can look at this experience two ways; one stupidity for not selling sooner or an opportunity to witness the power, mercy and care of God. We opted for the latter. Still green in our Christian walk, this trial went to the depths of our souls. Did we trust God was our provider and not ourselves? Did we truly believe He was in the details like His Word says? Were we going to rely on that still small voice telling us He would provide and there was no need to sell our home? Did we honestly think He cared that much about little ole’ us? Did we think He could provide the money we desperately needed? When you have to act on your beliefs then you know if you truly trust what you say you do.
A month from going under, we took a break from our job search and headed for the beach. We spent a couple of hours talking about our situation, God, and the possibilities of what would happen. There was no question we weren’t selling. We decided to rest in the promises of God we had been studying. No action, no faith. If we not now then when? If we don’t trust Him with our lives, then what is everything we had been learning for? Is He our God or isn’t He? Several times, we paused let the water dash over our toes and wondered at the amazing peace we felt. Shouldn’t we spend every waking hour trying to find some income? Shouldn’t we be nervous wrecks?
We followed the whisper.
God provided. We didn’t have to sell our home. The blessings started to pour into our lives. We trusted Him and He was faithful. That trial put our relationship on a different level with God because acting on our trust in Him breathed life into His promises.
Looking back the choice was between; believe God and enter into His land of promises and rest or stay wandering around in the desert until He provided another opportunity to demonstrate our trust was in Him and not us.
The possibility of defeat was huge as it banged at our back door, but looking back the enormity of the defeat made the victory all the greater and sweeter. It is a time in our life that we often reflect upon to give us peace, a time we felt the caring perfect mighty hand of our Lord.
Our ultimate purpose is to be one with God in truth, will and desire. Everything we go through is for that purpose. These moments when the possibility of defeat are great are the most powerful in increasing our union with Him. We have to call upon like no other time, we have to expand our trust and depend on Him with all that is within us and those acts take us deeper into His presence.
In a boat the waves crashing all around, I sit starring into Your eyes. The storm is great, but You control the storm. It is only a matter of time before You calm the waters. You look at me; what, who am I trusting? Am I scrambling to and fro, calling to others to rescue me, or paralyzed with a panic stricken stare? My eyes remain fixed on you. I see nothing else but you and your love and care for me.
2 Samuel 22:33 God is my strength and power, And He makes my way perfect
August 19, 2008 at 6:39 am
Hi my Sistah!!
We seem to be in what you were in before, our rent could cover a couple of mortgages. Hawaii cost of living is so expensive. But we are trusting in the Lord to help us through this financial draining as well. Thank you for sharing this I see so much hope through your words and pray that I can share a victory report with you oneday.
August 20, 2008 at 7:31 pm
I will keep you in my prayers . . . and I pray soon we will doing a victory dance.
August 21, 2008 at 6:02 pm
Rachel, this is an incredible story of faith, and I can bet that many will be blessed by it!
August 25, 2008 at 1:07 am
I have not had time to read anything in this blog but I did get your info over on blogspot.com and I wanted to thank you for dropping into my blog and commenting. We need more believers seeking the WORD and not doctrine. We need more people of *faith* and not religion. I appreciate your encouragement. I’ve found it’s a pretty lonely walk, myself. 🙂
August 26, 2008 at 11:47 pm
True, I find few truly abide in truth . . . I think it will only get less as the end draws near, but I find myself finding fellowship and like spirits in the non-traditional forms like blogging . . . fellowship is being reframed.
December 2, 2011 at 12:55 pm
Hey Rachel, great wittnessing of faith! I believe the Lord wants us to live life the best we can in honesty, fleshly as well as Spiritually. -a point that we may all need in the near future: When I was a teenager (12) & alone in the world (I am a mongrel in blood, but relate most as a Choctaw Indian) an 84yr. old black man that could maybe count to 20, because that was the most money he ever had at one time, told me, peoples is a whoe lots happier in this wuld when they learns nots to wants so much. this &many other of his sayings have stayed with me for this last half century. Even though I am living very well today, it is as my wife says, those making 30,000 or less is the one’s trully blessed, just think of it, someone that has lived all of life on 200,000 or more, could they suddenly manage today’s life on 30,000 & a lot less? I know I speak in the tongue of red-neck, but I pray the Lord will enterprat!
December 6, 2011 at 4:56 pm
Hi Eldon, we come to a point in our spiritual maturity when we realize all is by God and of God and we aren’t attached to it. At that point it doesn’t matter what we have or don’t. I believe God wants to bless His children and have them abide in satisfaction and that is different for each one of us. We have to trust God to give and provide what He wills. I put no parameters on Him.
December 7, 2011 at 1:51 pm
Who are these that fly as a cloud,
and as the doves to their windows?